It's been a while for me since I last visited- I'm sorry to say that it all got too much. I felt demoralised with every sad story and unsuccessful attempt and decided to opt out for a while.
Anyway, I'm back and looking forward to sharing the good and the bad that is this TTC monster!!
My story so far is that after 3 years of TTC without success I was finally referred to a FS last year. As I'm healthy, ovulate normally and our only possible issue is my endo the FS thought that we should go straight to IVF. The stim cycle went smoothly with 6 embryos the result. The first one was transferred in October, the second in January and then we had two transferred in February, all without success.
In the mean time, my husband was offered his dream job so we moved back to NSW and after a couple of months a went off to a new FS. My new doctor thought that Clomid was worth a try so we are giving that a go for a few cycles. If that is still unsuccessful, we will transfer our two remaining embryos and then have another go at a stim cycle after that.
Our second attempt with Clomid has just failed- cruelly, AF arrived last night (along with the most horrific pain) on day 31. As my cycles are usually 27-28 days I was starting to think it may have finally been my turn, but as usual- no. I had been really good to avoid the temptation to POAS- my deal with myself was that if I got to 32 days I would do it. At this stage I think I just wanted to enjoy the possibility of pregnancy!
So that's where I'm at! I hope everyone is doing as well as possible and that there is lots of success for us all soon.
Meg - welcome back. Sorry about your BFN. I know what you mean about HPTs ruining that possibility.
Loops - stay strong. I'm hoping it all ends in a BFP. I hope you get a buyer really soon for the tractor. It's not fair that IVF is so expensive.
Trueblue - the final days must be so frustrating, hang in there. GL with your comp. I just SATC2 as well, loved it.
Mildez - I know a month must seem like forever away. Hopefully you won't need the appointment and to board the IVF rollercoaster.
Terry - thanks for you reassurance hun. Wishing you sticky vibes for tomorrow. If all goes well with me I will join you at the tail end of your TWW.
Arielle - welcome. Hopefully this will be the last transfer.
Yogi - sorry I don't know too much about AMH, but I agree there always seems to be something to worry about.
Trea - GL with your transfer...with any luck 10 will be magic for you.
LMM - thanks for sharing how the after affects of EPU feel. I feel so much better. I just remember waking up from the lap and all I could say was "I'm in pain". I hope you have a great number of juicy follies on Tuesday and yay about the easy run on the roads. I do aerobics as well so will be interesting to see how I feel when exercising. I"m sure I will find it strangely reassuring to feel the little eggs. I might just check with my FS that aerobics is okay.
Kaybee - GL with your scan!
AFM: have my first scan since being on gonal tomorrow. Crossing my fingers that I'm developing a reasonable number of follicles and my dose is working.
Meg, welcome back. I hope the clomid does the trick. I just wanted to share my experience with endo since you said it was your "only possible issue". Have you had a lap to check for it? I asked our first FS about checking for endo several times and he refused each time. We did 6 IUI, 4 IVF and 1 FET with that FS and all of them were BFN. We changed to a new FS in February and the first thing he did was book me in for a lap (I finally had a doctor take my classic endo symptoms seriously). When he did the lap in March he discovered I had stage III endo and removed what he could. We did our first IVF with him in May and I'm still astounded beyond belief that it worked. If your FS actually suspects you have endo, I highly recommend getting a lap done and having it removed. In our case I honestly believe it was the cause of all our BFNs and 3 years of heartache. From what I've been told, it was also most likely the cause of our m/c last year. Endo can affect both egg quality (in my case one of my ovaries was completely covered by it) and the uterine environment.
GL to everyone heading to EPU and those in the 2ww. :luck:
Loops, I'm still sending you tractor selling vibes.
Trea - sounds like our FETs will be on the same day, or close to it - I'm only putting one in though - talk to you more when it gets closer (hurry up!)
Yogi - sorry, I don't know anything about FSH so can't offer any rambling wisdom. I wish people like that nurse knew how much their little throw away comments can dig right in and hurt.
Trueblue - when I got my BFP a few months ago the first thing I did was POAS to see if there really was a second line on those damn things. You'll get to see your own little blue line in a few days FX
Arielle - when I read your history it sounded like you had just copy-pasted mine. We're the same age too. GL!
Lisa - GL with your scan on Tuesday. It's been so long since I've done a full IVF cycle that I can't remember what my ovaries felt like.
Loops - really hoping things start looking up for you. Tractor selling vibes your way! Have you POAS again yet?
Terry - thanks for the aspirin info. Clotting was one thing I was going to talk to FS about on Thursday. Hope FET goes very smoothly - let us know
Mildez - lt would be unreal if AF never came - about time we had a BFP in here! GL FX
Meg - so sorry about your painful af. Whenever I'm strong and resist POAS I do exactly the same thing - start getting excited inside (all the while telling myself not to) and interpreting every pain or sensation as pregnancy and then AF rears her unwelcome ugly head. Now for that IVF ride - Good luck
AFM - nothing new, just love the reassurance BB gives in not feeling alone in this
I hope you get a buyer really soon for the tractor. It's not fair that IVF is so expensive.
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