good advice Sushee

Shez - take each day as it comes - being at baby's birth is very emotional - I watched as a student (when I was about 20yrs old - i didn't even know the lady) and I bawled my eyes out - even if you go and cry - you will 'enjoy' the experience and it will be joyful in a way to see this precious event - something for you to hope for and focus on .
No-one will know any different about why you are crying extra tears.
Do what is best for you at the time ...

I hope your scan is great news Monday