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Thanks girls. Vic I agree that 6 cycles and 7 failed embryos (including one near miss) is now about time that something else should be tried. I think I need a break though - I HAVE to lose weight. There's no more excuses. But I might just grieve for a week or two first. I'm so so tired. Somehow this one hurts more because if the miscarriage I think.
myturn - I'm so sorry it's just not fair ttc should not be so hard and heartbreaking, thinking of you :hug:
Myturn I am so so sorry you are feeling the pain so bad this time. Definitely make them look at something different for you next time but give yourself a rest and recoup. Good luck with the weight loss, you can do it you are strong and determined xo
I am so confused with my body, normally I would have had af by now even on the meds.....still nothing and this afternoon there was a line I had to squint to see again, either I have a huge bad batch of tests or something weird is going on in my body...i cant work it out this time.....I just want the answer and can't believe I have another 5 days till BT to get through cause unless af arrives its the only way I will get my answer for sure.
I have my family Xmas Saturday and am not really looking forward to it as it is my new nieces first Xmas and the second time I will have seen her. I have no doubt it will be a tough day for me.
N2l and mytrun i hope our hugs have helped you feel loved and comforted through this xo
couldn't agree with you more joeve, well said. im so sorry n2l - you are right, it was your turn. i don't know who's in charge of this ttc stuff, but they've really dropped the ball on this one. xx
myturn - im sorry for you too... it never gets any easier to take. xx
kerbear - hugs, hope saturday goes ok for you. xx
Kerbear I'm so glad you're still in the running xox
Big hugs for Myturn and N2L - Am so sorry to hear the bad news :( Thinking of you..
Myturn I don't feel in the running it's 2weeks tomorrow I had my day 2 transfer, shouldn't something be showing up by now ??????
Still negative test on a digital today, still no af, guess Monday BT is the only way I am ever going to get the final answer but I have no doubt it over for me. When I say over I mean over for good, this was it, our last chance :-(
The bank account can't do anymore and I am not sure we can. If we do ever decide to do another round of ivf there will have to be some serious tests done as I can't keep putting us through this to lose our embies at day 3 and no transfers work.
How do I move on from here and not be bitter and twisted that I will never be a mum. This world is so unfair and I hope I can overcome this and not be the bitter and twisted person I am at the moment. I can't be happy for anyone else in my life having babies ATM but I have to suck it up and put the brave face on.
I was meant to be a mum god damn it. How can I finally find my soul mate and best friend a few years ago and now be punished to not be able to have a family with him????????? This sucks and my heart hurts so much :-(
kerbear: :hug: i don't have the answers im afraid, its just not fair :(
kerbear, it's so unfair. I hope there's a miracle baby in your future. :hug:
i so understand what you are saying Kerbear BIG HUGS :comfort: i know it is no constellation but we all wish it so much for you and its just not fair any of this LTTTC :shakehead:.
i beg and plead with the universe every day and every cycle i think like u exactly and wonder how not to be bitter and twisted.
My Turn and N2L i wish i could give u a big hug too!!
This is why i ony pop in and out these days... its hard xoxoxo
myturn, n2l & kerbear I am so very sorry that you lovely ladies haven't been given a Christmas miracle. nothing but lots and lots of :hug: x
Oh beautiful kerbear. So so so so sorry. I guess there's still a chance... But it sucks you have to wait until Monday for BT.
I had mine today - as expected :bfn: :( of course the blood dripping outta me was a bit of a give away. Sorry I know it's :tmi:
i don't know what else to say kerbear except :hug: so sorry for both you and n2l would have sacrificed my own BFP for either one of you.... Unfortunatly it appears not a single one of us was in the running. It seems like such a waste :(
off to the weight loss journey for me now... Bah humbug. Ill pop in and out of here and be stalking. But for now I'm having a break and don't know when I'll be back. :( :( :( good luck everyone xox
Myturn good luck with the weight loss, my body is getting punished next year for letting me down. I am going to get the next 30kgs off if it kills me in 2013. i want to just eat myself into oblivion but I am not going to give in to it!!!!
If I can't give my husband a baby I can give him a hot sexy wifey.
Hugs for all of us xo
So I did my blood test early today and levels are 14, positive but not viable, another bt Monday just to make sure it goes down. They told me to stop pessaries and patches but I just can't do it till I know it's 0 or dropped, I know it's probably silly but can't do any harm since I shouldn't have had bt till Monday and would be using them anyway,
Kerbear :( I hate chems :( :hug:
Official BFN for me too. No idea if there was any hcg because DP took the call. My phone was on silent so they rang him.
Feel lost.
:hug: for everyone :( :( :(
Just wanted to send you some cyber hugs myturn, kerbear and n2l :hug::hug::hug:. I hoped for a BFP for you ladies for Christmas. Just wanted to say that I often think of you guys, I just wish that you got your BFP finally.
Kerbear, I'm sorry if it's a chem pg, I sincerely hope not :hug::crossfingers:
My fs has called and said to continue with everything test again Monday and see what the results are, stupid thing is I don't feel like its a chemical with the twinges and pains but you know **** happens.
Good luck kerbear!
Good luck Kerbear I have everything crossed for you xxx
Thanks chody and rai, I am trying to do the positivity thing, it's not over till the fat lady sings and this fat lady hasn't sung yet lol. No af and normally I get it with progesterone and estrogen and last time we lost one at low levels af came the day levels dropped so we will just wait and see.
Thanks for your messages xo
Poas this morning and there is a line there which is darker than yesterday's maybe it's just like us...lazy and slow moving lol
Great to hear kerbear! I'm praying that the line gets darker for you and you have a sticky one in there :crossfingers::goodluck: We need some good news in here :pray: xx
Oooh that sounds good kerbear!
That's fantastic kerbear I'm hoping and praying for
You that it's a sticky one its exciting keeping everything
Crossed xxxx
I am hoping with all the others for you too gorgeous xox
Hi lovely ladies just a question so i can annoy myself a bit more. How many days after O can i poas i'm counting tuesday as day 1 cause i know i o'd on tuesday. Yes i'm a poas addict i also use the internet cheapies i think i have about 50 waiting for me in my draw but just wanted to see when i can start xxxxx
kerbear, FX this means good news on Monday!
rai, I wouldn't start before 8dpo. Implantation is supposed to occur between 7-10dpo, so even at it's earliest (7dpo) you wouldn't expect detectable levels before 8dpo...
Thanks Juniper that means i can start testing christmas day :dance:
Oh Kerbear! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and my knees and toes as well! Sending you sticky vibes! xx
If you O'd on Tuesday, then 8dpo would be Boxing Day.:
I did a digital test on Friday morning day of blood test and it said not pregnant and levels were only 14. Today's digital days pregnant 1-2weeks so the levels have gone up, I am still praying its enough and sticking and proves everyone wrong. Next bt tomorrow.
Thanks for all you well wishes and crossing of fingers xo
Yay!!! Keep rising levels!! FX for your BT tomorrow kerbear xoxo
Kerbear I was thinking of you this morning and hoping you
Done another test which is exactly what I would have done lol
I am just so happy for you that it's all looking good. Everything
Crossed for good bt results tomorrow xxxx
Rai :-) As a poas addict my theory is whilst it is showing up and getting darker it's rising cause if it had fell it wouldn't show cause the level was so low Friday. I might be silly hoping but there are women out there that have had low levels like mine that rose slowly and had a baby. No harm in hoping.
Ker - I am crossing everything for you xxx
Good luck Kerbear! Hoping everything turns out for the best :hug: x
I'm keeping everything crossed for you kerbear!
You are all so supportive it is such a good feeling to have you all here.
Feeling tight and stretchy feelings and freak out every time I go to toilet lol
Dh keeps saying just enjoy the feelings of being pregnant and stop worrying, he is so sweet and keeps me level and calm...which I need atm.
Had a wonderful Xmas with my family last night, they all knew test wasn't good but I didn't tell them things seemed to be improving and they all gave us the biggest hugs. We decided not to tell them if anything changes so that if it does actually stick around we can be like normal people and surprise them :-)
How is everyone else going in their tww??