LT TTC Two Week Wait #4

Hi Everyone

I'm getting confused who I have and haven't said hi to, I'm so dodgy at this!

But hello to everyone hope your week isn't dragging, yay for Friday tomorrow.

Oneday - thanks for the info - woo that most of your cramping and pain has stayed away thats excellent.

Springlola - yay made it through another day, thats ok i wasn't too worried as i was so big i can understand why she assumed i was pg, its so cruel esp when you want to be that big with a real bubby instead of my fluid belly

Tantee - thanks for the info aswell, hope the coughing has eased

Kaybee - thanks heaps, goodluck for your bt tomorrow!!!

Trishy - welcome back for tomorrow

Hi Saffy, Loops, Lisa and anyone else I've missed

I'll be 4dp5dt tomorrow and all of the ovidrel should be out of my system, have a feeling I'm about to become a serial poas-er. The only thing stopping me is the embarrassment of buying them at the chemist/supermarket! I really should just order them in bulk online and have them posted lol!

Thanks kaybee and Aimee!
Kaybee how many days after transfer did you poas? i want to do it monday which will be 8DPT but im just so scared to maybe having to face reality again. Goodluck with your BT today i have everything crossed for you and will be on here first thing the sarv to see how you went xxx

Aimee does it take 4 days to be out of your system? i was wondering that. I keep thinking well it would be implanted by now if it was going to happen and if i POAS i would prob get my answer but im too scared, the thought of breaking DH's and my heart again is too much xxx.

AFM-Last night i told my self if this one dosn't work thats it i want to give up and just adopt, this kills me and its not what i want but i just feel like its never going to work and IVF is taking its toll on both of us in every single way. I guess i will see what the new yr brings and make my decision but heres hoping we are alll going to get our BFP's!!!!xxxx

Just popping in quickly to wish Kaybee good luck for her BT..

Be thinking of you and waiting for your result..

Yay the biggest sticky baby vibes heading your way Kaybee....:clap::dance:

Kaybee - Wishing you tonnes of luck for today's BT. I have my fingers crossed for you

Aimee - IKWYM re POAS. I am actually planning on buying a whole bunch today. May have to spread my purchases across a couple of different shops so I don't look too desperate.

Oneday - I really hope that you don't have to get to the point of even having to make that decision. I have my fingers crossed for you. Some days you feel so hopeful and others you feel so absolutely exhausted mentally from the whole process. I hope your day gets a bit better and that you know we are all cheering you on in the sidelines.

Springlola - There have been thousands and thousands of Day 2 embies that have made it all the way, way before blastocysts were around, so please don't give up hope.

AFM - I'm not getting any signs/symptoms at all. My bb's aren't even tender (yes I check every hour or so!) which I would at least expect from the crinone. Have had some slight cramping but not really in the vincinity of my uterus, more down near my groin which I assume IS from the crinone. As mentioned, I'm off to buy some hpt's today and then play mind games with myself by trying to resist using them for the next week. Sigh..... what a nutter!

Hey all,

I've been avoiding coming in all this time to try and avoid thinking of pregnancy. Mind you it hasn't been working! I've been going insane!!! ....... and bought some HPT's today!!

Have been shopping all week as i'm officially on leave from work and don't know how to keep myself busy. I too have been getting all sort of possible symptoms!

Keeping my message short today! Hope your all going ok with ur wait!

How many days left before we test??? hehehehe

Thanks Tantee :) its just really been getting to me this week, my poor DH has coped it all week. Im going to test sunday morning so DH will be here with me for support if its bad, i will be 7DPT, i dont want to as im scared it will be neg but its better to get the answer then let it drag on. When will you test tantee?

Hey tima, goodluck when was your transfer?

Iv had tender breast since before transfer so must be crinone or the trigger shot? but its starting to go away:( but then again my breasts didn't get tender when i was pg till about 11DPT so dosn't mean anything bad girls! xxxxxx

Has anyone heard from Kaybee?

Oneday - I didn't end up buying the hpt's today but will definately tomorrow. I will try to hold out until Monday, but will probably cave in and test on Sunday once I get my paws on them. We will be 7dp5dt so hopefully we'll have some indication. I have been popping in througout the day to see how Kaybee is going. Hope all is good and you are out celebrating Kaybee. :pray:

Tima - When is your BT? I'm not working much either at the moment and the days are draaaaaaaaagging. I think we all should have bought shares in an hpt company at the beginning of our TTC journeys, at least we would get some $$ back. I know I have spent a small fortune on them over the last 4 years.:rolleyes:

Bring on those BFP's!!!!!!!!!!!!:bluedust::pink-babydust::bluedust::pink-babydust:

Had my transfer today 2 embies transferred and 1 left over to freeze

Bt is Xmas eve

Hi again!!

Oneday - my transfer was on the 5/12/2010. So this makes me 5dp3dt!! Wooot! Almost a week past! Sometime i wish they would do a 5dt so i dont have to wait as long! Would make my life a little easier!

Tantee - My BT is on the 20th. Only because i cant get my blood tested on the weekend so have to go on the monday which will 15dp3dt which is waaaaaaaaaaay too long for me to wait! hehehehe. I bought the clear blue digital HPT this time around with fx'd that i'll never need to buy them again. I've ebayed them a few time a bought the cheaper ones in bulk! Think i bought 40 for $10! theyre the annoying ones that you have to pee in a cup... but it works (actually i've never seen a positive so maybe they dont!)

Trishy - Goooooodluck with your wait! Enjoy the nightmare with the rest of us! hahahaha

Any opinions on the best time to poas?? 7dp3dt or 10dpo perhaps??? or should i wait! I can feel BFP's this month for many!!! I have a good feeling!! FX

Just realised its saturday so that makes me 6dp3dt! woooooooot! That's one day closer...

Hi Ladies,

Sorry - DH was hogging computer all day, then I fell asleep by the time he got off (I haven't told him about BB so couldn't say why I needed it). Anyway, my BT results.... yesterday was 10dp5dt and my hcg was 230 and prog was 167!!!! Yay!!!!! I hope hope hope my struggles are over and this one hold on tight for 9 months.

Please let this be the first of a long run of BFP's in here :crossfingers::crossfingers::crossfingers:

oh kaybee thats fantastic!!! congrats, i wish you all the best for the next 9 months xoxoxo and yes lets hope for many more BFP's in here :)

Kaybee do you still have any cramping?

Kaybee-:leap: well done hun, sounds verrrry promising!!!! Heres some :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: for you but I'm sure you won't need them xx

Everyone else- I have been following you all and very excited for you- hope there are lots of bubs sticking in as we speak! :goodluck:

Too busy for persies, have had a stressful week, but can report I am in the TWW now and I think I o'd Thursday which would be good as we got a BD in that day. This is a natural cycle so it would be a miracle but you have to have hope!

Hi girls, I've been offline as we had our upstairs floors polished so had to disconnect the net access. I haven't read the messages for all, just feeling like crap. No signs of pregnancy... With my first cycle at this exact time I had implantation bleeding, sore boobs, this time I've got nothing... I just give up :-(

Sue

Hi Everyone

Tantee - so I got 6 tests (2 3 pack - too embarrassed to buy anymore), a little excessive I know, but I can limit myself to 1/day lol

Oneday - it usually takes 10 days at least for ovidrel to get out of my system, I only had one shot 36hours before EPU so it should be gone by now. I agree and hope this is the one for you and that you don't have to go down that road! At the same time though, I have 2 adopted siblings and have always loved them dearly and loved growing up together, so although I hope you don't have to, just wanted to share a positive story if that makes sense.

Trishy - bt christmas eve, fx an eary chrissy present for you.

Kaybee - such wonderful news, you're levels sound excellent!!!!

Tima - we have our bt's on the same day....ick am trying not to count down......8 sleeps. The longer you wait the more accurate your result will be but if I'm going to get a positive it usually comes up 2 or 3 days before my bt, but every cycle is different I guess, plus I am usually naughty and test too early anyway

Sweetie - oh please don't give up just yet, how many more days do you have until your bt?

AFM - have been having funny on off cramping and my ovaries are still tender, hate waiting like everyone else but am trying to enjoy each day in the mean time.

Hi Saffy, Springlola and anyone else I've missed hope you're all going well.

Ok Aimee, I won't give up! BT is Mon 20th so another week away (8 sleeps!)... AF due this Friday so I will POAS then (had a natural cycle so no drugs to give a false result). Just disappointed didn't get the implantation bleeding this time round... Oh well, we'll wait it out!

hey ladies, i did a POAS this morning 7DPT and it was a BFN!! DH said maybe its too early but both other times it picked up 6DPT so i doubt it. Im shattered and really wondering why we just wasted the past 4 months planning and waiting and then doing the long process for the STIM to get 20 eggs, 1 embryo and still no baby. Im over it and cant believe the bad luck DH and i have had this year. The worst part is i think we always prepare ourselves for a neg cause thats all we know but this time i thought it was it, i felt different i had barely any pains this time and i thought it was gods way of saying you dont need those other 19 embryos you only need this one, well that was a load of crock and instead this is going to be the s******* christmas ever. Im sorry ladies but i cant believe we are now looking at doing a 3rd EPU and a 6th transfer! I hope you ladies get your BFP's, all the best xxxxxx

sweetie and oneday dont give up yet. One day when is your bt?

Hey oneday86, I'm prob not a good role model for you! It's tough but we have to remember our turn will come... I know it's hard to stay positive, though what helps for me is speaking to friends, hearing others stories, gives me hope. My boss had first baby at 22, then struggled for six years for her second and had a couple of miscarriages in between. I really wanted to have a baby in my 20's with my first boyfriend, we were together for 9 years. Found out he was cheating on me big time, so I went overseas... The positive, I met my future husband in Ireland and everyday I'm so happy for that. Of course I want to have his baby but oh well... We'll get there matie! :comfort:

Girls - it's not over yet! Oneday - weren't your last transfers day 5 and this one was day 3 (can't remember) if so, maybe this one will take a few more days to show up??? I know how awful it is getting hopes up for nothing, but I don't want you to lose hope just yet. Also, embryoes implant at different times after transfer (I read somewhere between 1 and 4 days) then a few days later hcg will show up on a test, so if it took a bit longer to implant then it might take a bit longer to show up on a test. I am crossing everything so tightly for you both :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Thanks Trishy and Kaybee. Well I just did POAS a few mins ago and BFN... So maybe still early (6DPT)... I had the frozen embryo transfer (5 day old embyie), if that make's any diff. Babydust for everyone!!!! x

Thanks sweetie! i too believe this too but everytime i try and it fails its like a bit more of my hope and heart breaks away, i just feel like its never going to happen for DH and I and i truly couldn't do this for another 4 yrs or more, we talked this morning about it and i think we are going to do one more STIM cycle and thats it. IVF has changed my whole life as it has everyone elses, but i believe it has changed me for the worst, im stressed and moody all the time i dont even know how to have fun anymore, my DH and i fight all the time i just cant physically and emotionally do it anymore! Having a baby of my own is everythng to me so for this i pull my self through the hard times and hold onto that hope but this one had seriously taken its toll on me, im so frustrated with life and its sh** hurdles it keeps putting us through. Iv decided enough is enough with my job (im a childcare worker) i cant do it anymore, there is 5 women pg there and obviously its just hard enough working with kids everyday, the prob is where do i go from here? iv got no other qualifications but i guess i will find something. Sorry for a me post AGAIN. I really do hope you ladies get BFP's xxxxxxxxx

Trishy im with westmead they only do urine tests then if your pg you go in for a BT, they wanted me to do them on the 23rd and 25th of dec xx

Hey oneday86 never to late for a career change. But you'll never escape from other pg women. I used to be so jealous when heard the baby news of friends and family back in Ireland, then girls around me... But then I thought I would never want them to feel the way I do or experience this pain of LT TTC. I know of five girls pregnant at work too! Two of them have had miscarriages in the past, and one having twins! I'm so excited for them all!

Well, you don't have to tell me about the fights with DH, we have had our fair share! These days we spend time more with the reno's for our house (have a leaking roof/ceiling, not fun!) so trying to relax think of other things... Oh I would love a glass of wine today, but I'll wait it out...

Thanks ladies for your support. Kaybee this was a day 5 like my other 4, your right it may have implanted later so i will do another test in a few days but im not very confident about it. I do need a change of career, for now anyway, I know i will never escape pg people but with my job i work very closely to everyone (outside in the playground, in the room etc) and it is very hard hearing them talking about being pg all the time, im very happy for all of them but it just dosn't make it easy when trying to concieve especially when they winge about it. I hope your results are wrong too sweetie, fingers crossed xxxx

Whoa Woo Kaybee: Congrats hoping with all my heart this is your sticky bub :clap:

Oneday: Don't beat yourself up too much, I always thought I was pretty tough mentally, until IVF came into my life. 2010 has been a roller coaster ride thats for sure. I keep thinking I should be having a bub in Jan, and think back to when we found out the bub had past, all I kept saying was that I felt broken...and I still feel broken. Then fast forward now almost 6mths and I'm still broken, if not more so. IVF is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life, there are pregnancies and babies everywhere...All I can say is please pick yourself up and do what you need to do to give the little soul waiting for your love and nuturing that they need...There are so many ways to give a mothers love. :comfort:

Tantee: Thanks so much for the pep talk the other day, I think I needed...good luck testing today, I don't know how you've waited this long :o

Saffy:Good luck going ala natural...I don't remember how that happens LOL, you mean with out drugs and Scientist..So hoping for a Christmas Miracle for you..got busy this week will catch up next week if your around :D

Aimee: You must've bought the same tests as me LMAO, I have one a day too..

Tima Sweetie and anyone else I've missed hope your travelling well...

AFM: POAS this morning bfn..I'm 8dp2dt I think thats right...have my bt on Friday the 17th if I dont go to the nut house before then...
On a positive note we have had offers on our place, so our sea change (or inland change) could be happening early in the new year..maybe thats what I need ...to start putting myself back together, and not be so broken...Sticky vibes to everyone...

hello...I am coming in to join you all....just had a blastocyst transferred today, so the long wait begins.

I am sorry to those who have just had negative results.... Springlola- perhaps too early to tell yet.... and sorry sweeetie and oneday...it's such a hard road, and full of so many ups and downs, and the downs can really knock you hard, i can relate. Hang in there.... our turns will come.

Springlola - I really hope that it swings the other way for you, you are still only 10dpo technically, so very early. Great news re your house. Hopefuly that will get you closer to where you want to be.

Oneday - I'm sorry that your test was neg, but believe me, I have googled and googled and googled today and there are plenty of people who have had very low numbers at this stage. I can relate to feeling like a little piece of you chips off with every bfn. Hang in there lovely, it can still change.:hug:
Are you able to do any part time or online courses to help with a change of job or perhaps your current work can train you up on admin side of thing in their office to get some experience and then move on? It's a big decision. I'm 36 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.

Sweetie - Yes, you are still borderline early. I really hope that you get your bfp. We are doing renos also, although am only up to the planning stage and having things have ripped out stage - feels like the story of my life!

Possums - hope your 2ww passes quickly for you.

Trishy - GL for your 2ww, what day transfer did you have?

Saffy - I hope you've had a relaxing weekend and that you are feeling a little better now.:hug:

Hi Tima, Aimee, hope you are both OK and that you are both out enjoying your weekends.

AFM - Well I have a confession to make. I caved in yesterday afternoon (6dp5dt) and POAS. It came up with the lightest of lightest lines, HOWEVER.. this morning with fmu...nothing! OK, so, obsessively (because I had one left) I did another this afternoon and it also had a very light line but I have started to spot. So I think something tried to happen, but didn't really take. Also feeling slight AF pain and still no bb tenderness or nausea (these were around at 10dpo last time)
IKWYM about a crappy Christmas. I am dreading it. There are only a few of us at Christmas including my pregnant SIL, who was a month behind me. It is going to be a tough reminder at Christmas. I just want to go away for Christmas but it is impossible.
I do not begrudge anyone a child but have to admit that I am a little jealous of how effortless it is for some and just find it hard to deal with at the moment.

My Inlaws dropped in this morning about an hour after my test, MIL asked me if everything was OK, I said no, the cycle didn't work and and in the next breath she proceeded to start telling me of some random person she knows who is having a baby next week, no 'oh I'm sorry, or that's no good' I interrupted her to say, look, I don't want to hear about all this right now if you don't mind' and walked out of the room. After last time when I lost my pregnancy, same thing happened and she seemed to think it was the perfect time to tell me that my SIL was pregnant.
Sorry for the me rant, but I had to let it out. I will not be telling anyone about any future TTC cycles again and am so thankful that I have you lovely ladies and others out there to talk to about this. :grouphug: (So much hugging in this post - you can tell I am feeling very emotional today!!)

Oh tantee- I am so sorry you have such an insensitive MIL! Mine is not great either, and my SIL has also shared pregnancy news at bad times..it's not fair
as for your tests/spotting....don't count yourself out yet, spotting can happen in pregnancy, so you never know- and symptoms can vary each time (been my experience)....I hope that perhaps you will get a pleasant surprise. It's such a rollercoaster though, I understand that. hang in there. this is a hard thing for us all to be going through right ahead of christmas too.

Hi All

SpringLola: do you think we should wait till our BT's for positive results?! DH got mad at me today for POAS, he said too early (though he no expert!). I used a digital stick, which your supposed to use on the first day of missed period. Not going to test again until Thursday... Let's see how long I can hold out for. Crossing fingers for you too!

Possums: yes we'll all hang in there together!! This is for you too oneday86 and well everyone here! :grouphug:

Tantee: Families, grrr! Mine were great to me, but DH said nobody on my side asked how he was (when we had miscarriage)... I never thought about it that way.

S

Hi all,

Im still lurking around and silently reading your posts. I'm having a bad feeling about this month, especially after accidentely poas this afternoon. :| It of course was a bfn! Looks like everyones vibes are going downhill. Have also been cramping on and off today and im horrified! Ah well.

Sweetie and aimee, looks like our BT's are on the same day! FX af doesnt come!

Just made some nachos and im eating like a pig!

Hi ladies! All i can say is huge :hug:s, i cant believe what a bad year it has been for alot of us in here on BB!
Dh took me chrissie shopping today which cheered me up a bit and a tiny bit of me is still hoping i just tested too early this time :pray: but im pretty certain it is a BPN. We were eating in the food court at the shops today and we had this young couple with a girl around 3 and a brand new baby boy sitting behind us and the whole time the guy was swearing at the mother and carraying on, when i finished my lunch i got up and said we need to go to my DH as tears were welling up in my eyes, it frustrates me and makes me so angry that certain ppl dont realise how lucky they are to have a beautiful miracle in their lives, i have become so sensitive on this topic since doing IVF because i know there are so many ppl out there that deserve children and cant have them.

Ladies i too can relate to hurting after a loss, i always think about my 'baby' and that he/she was due on the 3rd of march, it breaks my heart everytime i think about it and i will tell you there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about that baby. I wish i knew why we had to go through so much heartache but i dont and it isn't fair but good things do come to good ppl and we will get our turns. i truly am so thankful for this site and you wonderful ladies becasue i would be lost without you xxxxxxx

I too am thinking about keeping the next STIM cycle to our selves, it makes it so much harder having to tell everyone it didnt work AGAIN! and to be honest i believe our family and friends are giving up hope on us having a baby. My mother inlaw can be pretty insensitive of our feelings too, when i lost our baby she rang the next day and told us good family friends were pg, i just thought why tell us? we dont need to know right now but my DH told her it upset me which was good. I think it comes down to ppl not knowing what we go through and carry everyday so they dont think these things would hurt us?

Ladies i hope we all get miracles and our BFN's turn into BFP's xxxx

Possums, just dropping to wish you all the very best, will be saying my prayers for you xx
Good luck to everyone else!

hey ladies just wanted to drop into say iv started to spot! I still had a little bit of hope the test was wrong but now it has hit home xxxx

:hug: to you oneday- you will get the miracle you deserve, I just don't know why we all have to wait so long for it xxx

oneday- so sorry, big hug- and you are so right so many people out there don't realise what they've got.... and I too feel the loss of my angel babies strongly- they'll always be with us. I hope you can take some time out just now for yourself, be gentle with yourself

babydreamtime- thanks! so lovely to hear from you

Hi Ladies,

Oneday - :hug: I'm so sorry. Your cycle seemed to be going so well, you must be devastated. Do whatever you need to do to get through this awful time - in here we know how it feels. :hug:

Possums - Good luck :crossfingers: Hope this is THE ONE for you.

Tantee - :pray: praying that yours becomes a more definite bfp very soon. Why do people think that hearing about other pregnancies will cheer us up in these horrible times. Whatever happened to giving people a hug and saying something caring (or nothing)? You truly do learn a lot about other people when doing ivf, which in turn will make us all better people in the end I think. I understand your christmas dilemma - my SIL had a baby almost on the due date of my baby. She's my niece and I love her, but we all know it's not the same. I hope your luck turns around xx

Tima - :hug: How are you going? I'm so sorry. (I love how you 'accidentally' POAS). I really hope it was too early

Sweetie - are you surviving the awful wait?

Springlola - have you poas again? Not long till the official BT - who am I kidding - friday is 10 years away! I have fingers and toes tightly crossed for you

I know my tww is officially over, but my follow-up bt is tomorrow and I am just as nervous as the first one. But I mostly just care about what's happening in here :grouphug:

Thanks for your kind words saffy, kaybee and possums! this one is the hardest to deal with, i just wish that i could see into a crystal ball and know everything is going to be ok because at the moment i feel like im never going to become a mum and it kills me! Im hoping things start to feel better soon. I don't want to tell my DH that i got my period today, yesterday when i done the POAS he had tears in his eyes and said 'cant we still have hope, maybe the test is wrong', it breaks my heart to tell him again and again that we still arn't pg. I really do wonder about life and how unfair it can be to good people. I really hope there will be more BFP's in here soon. I guess id better go as im not in the 2ww anymore xxxx

Hi everyone,

I am joining in - starting my tww today after having AI (I am doing IUI).

Sad to see that some of us haven't received great news leading up to Xmas :( I hope for the rest of you, that you are coping as well as you can. xx

RhiChiChi...welcome! I hope you do receive your christmas wish

oneday-oh I know, it's so hard not knowing when it will happen isn't it..that's what really gets me sometimes too....wondering, how long?! try and find time for you and your DH to be together and share doing things that help you feel a bit brighter....it all helps you through

to everyone else waiting, fingers crossed!

afm- not really enjoying the crinone, but hope it's doing it's thing! and am also on daily clexane injections, which hurt more than the ivf needles, but aren't as bad as i had feared. Have this week off, so am keeping busy and also having plenty of downtime, which i hope it helping my little embie snuggle in!

Hi everyone,

Oneday, big hugs to you. I can only say to you to be kind to yourself. This TTC journey is so hard to take at times, it's a constant wave of hope and then disappointment and can really take it's toll. You sound like you have a very loving, caring DH and you will get your strength from each other. A crystal ball would be great - It would be so much easier even if it told you that you would get pg in 'x' number of cycles, the cycles would be so much easier to get through knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Tima - lol @ your accident! Eating lots is a good sign isn't it?

Sweetie - sometimes we are so focused on every little step of the process, it is easy to forget about DH's feelings sometimes and the strain it puts on them too. I know I am certainly guilty of that at times.

Kaybee - praying for fantastic numbers for you today. Please keep us posted asap.

Possums - thanks for your kind words. I have found no effects from the crinone this time around, not even *tmi 'excess crinone although have in the past. Do you mind my asking what you are taking the clexane for?

RhiChiChi - Welcome, this is the best place to be, lots of lovely, strong, supportive women in here to support you in this stressful time.

Springlola - C'mon Friday!! Lots of Luck. I may end up in the nuthouse too this week. Group discount I'm thinking.

Hi Sweetie, Aimee & Tima - I hope your trifecta comes in on BT Day.

Hi to anyone I may have missed.

AFM - twice daily POAS had driven me mad, super, super, super light up until yesterday morning, now nothing. No more spotting. I had also started getting a real aversion to the smell of cleaning products which has now also gone. No cramping, no tender bb, nada! My guess is implantation happened to some degree but didn't take. I just want to get BT over with now (Thurs).
Am thinking that I will have to wait until Feb now. Does anyone's FS let them do a FET straight after a stim cycle? Even though it is Christmas, I would like to at least be starting a cycle again in mid Jan.
Now I am going to try and drag my sorry a##e out for a while. I don't feel like going anywhere or seeing any one but have hardly left the house for days and am getting cabin fever with just my pee sticks for company.