LTTTC after Miscarriage and Loss

Thanks girls your support and advice means a lot to me !

Have had a big chat and DH agrees we should go for the initial consultation and see what our options are if any, IVF will be a definate no as we do not have the funds for that but maybe clomid or IUI depending on what they say so trying to stay positive until next Thursday and have an open mind and just see what he has to say.

Well DTD again this morning so should be covered now as today is the big O day and had sharp pains in my right side 6am this morning before doing the deed so hopefully the spem gets to meet the egg if there is one there of course !!! anyhow gave it our best shot so now the waiting begins .

Alice thanks so much for your pep talk about your SIL I guess at our age people don't really understand why we even trying anymore but some of us just need to fill the gap so to speak one last time ! I hope your apt is not too far ahead of you and then maybe we can be in the other forum together with growing bellies !!!

Ferrals how you doing ? its gonna be a long long TWW and I have an apt 8days past ovulation so too damn eary to test dam !

Crafty-your not wrong there AF due on the 22nd for me so 12 days seems like forever but on the other hand i expect not to be pregnant so just waiting to see if i make it on the next ivf cycle list.

AFM-Just waiting watching my savings dwindle with all the bills coming in i can't wait to get my tax back to put some moola back in the bank.
Not real optimistic about being pregnant i have this visual of DH sperm banging away headbutting my eggs but not able to get in STUPID MORPHOLOGY!!!!!!!

Hi ladies,

Crafty - so glad you are going ahead with your appt, nothing ventured nothing gained.

Ferrals - I know what you mean about feeling like we've been in TTC threads for ever. I know I left a few times briefly but....still here I am! It must be our turn soon. Hope your TTW does not drag on too much. I realised we have about 12 hours a month where we are not just waiting around. We wait 2 weeks to O then 2 weeks to test. We have that awesome 12 hour break where we know we O'ed and can actually be doing something other than waiting. We must be the most patient people on the planet!

AFM - well I have no idea what's going on. My boobs have been sore but I'm sure that's just the progesterone. Today I am 5dpo and I'm soooo tired and totally grumpy, I just want to be in bed, everything is too much effort today. I hope its a good sign but probably way too early.

Hi Ladies

Ferrals - I hear you about the $$$. I can't imagine how we will afford IVF. DH said not to worry we have things we can sell and MIL has money put aside for us for IVF plus DH Grandma. But I just don't feel right in asking if and when we need the extra.

Sunbeam Maybe have an early night. It's been an emotional couple of weeks for you. I'm hoping the sore (.Y.) are a great sign FX.

Crafty I agree with Sunbeam. You have nothing to lose by going to your FS appointment. FX you just need a little help.

I know I've missed some one. I struggle to keep up some days. I hope you are all travelling well.

ferrals-clinic was saying you can sometimes claim some of ivf expenses through tax system,worth looking into if you haven't already...craftymummy-hope you've kept your baby stuff...happybaby-keeping busy in your tww?..alice-your so sweet,thank you,i'll ask about the scan...trea-wishing you lots of luck for tomorrow. ..afm-i think i've o'd,waiting for bt result to show that as well,hopefully i'll get a transfer date when i ring tomorrow for results...hugs to all

Mathewsmum-Yeh! i am going to an accountant next month with all my PGD ivf receipts from last year as i was OOP about $6000 i have already claimed some money back for the $900 we paid for the orgalutran on private health insurance i don't no why it was so expensive when this time we will get 5 injections for $350 and any extra is about $60 so much cheaper through westmead ivf.
I am also claiming back 2 laptops and i under estimated our income by about $10,000-$15,000 with centerlink since DH changed jobs so i think we will get a nice top up payment from them on top of the carers bonus i get for my boys in july i am crossing my fingers for around $6000 which will go straight into my poor looking savings account.

Sunbeam-i am feeling different this month i don't even really worry about all the symptoms or lack of i am just waiting for my AF so i can ring the clinic to see if i made it on the list i am not even thinking of if i could be pregnant just expect not to be and you know what i feel good not caring about it every second of every day i am not even counting days to test i am not going to test this month unless i am late i am just waiting for AF to start ivf but we will see how am am at the end of the TWW.

AFM- FS rang with my BT results i am perfectly normal in every way all hormones were great my thyroid function spot on normal she said very normal BT results.
And my U/S she is very happy with and this next cycle they are leaving me on 200 puregon as i make to many follicles which pushes my E2 levels up so she wants me to stay on a low dose and aim for 10 eggs which i am a little bummed about i have the potential for 20+ eggs but because of my stupid E2 levels going to high i have to aim for less

ferrals-they say it's the quality,not the quanity,10 still a good number,women have had less and ended up with a baby...afm-clinic rang early this morning,needed another bt as my estrogen is still lower than 500,showing other signs of o'ing though,got the cm happening,felt 'o' pain in my side this morning.

Ferrals 10 good mature eggs would be fantastic (and would be praying they all or mostly fertilize and continue to grow, grow, grow). The more eggs you get the higher the chance some are immature is that right? But then I can see your point. If its a numbers game you want more hey?

Crafty hope you caught the egg this month and don't need that FS appointment.

AF arrived yesterday a day late. 27days to go till my appointment and hopefully I can start the pill then in readiness for IVF.

Hi all

Matthews mum great news your transfer won't be long now they just need to get your hormones right !
Ferrals 10 eggs is a great number and I agree with Mildez better to have good quality and less of them I think ! ( 10 is a great number )

Mildez sorry Af turned up I guess you were getting your hopes up being a day late I would be anyway ! not long now and you can get sorted on a good IVF plan and work towards your goal, Be nice if we get to be UTD together with ferrals and the rest of us in here !

Ferrals I agree with not thinking about the TWW too much me too, I figure why would this month be any different from the last 9mnths ! anyway got to write out my history ready for next weeks apt, not enough space on the form they sent me only has room for 4 pregnancies well I have 14 all up so need a full A4 sheet Lol,
Really nervous in a way as to what they gonna say when they see my age and how many kids I already have but I remind myself I am paying for the apt and they better be nice to me ! I may just have a hissy fit if they make any rude comments I am peri-menapause as you know and my moods swing let me tell you one minute cry cry cry the next I want to kill kill kill god how I hate being me atm,
Poor DH cops it most the time I am very patient with my kids but DH well seems he can't do anything right of late !!! Shame I will have to make it up to him real soon !

Enjoy your day !

Crafty - they better be nice to you! Shouldn't matter how many babies/pregnancies you've had - if you need treatment then that is what they are there for. BTW, my brother rang the other night and was sounding v. excited but I lost my courage to ask so changed the topic but sounds like their IVF is going well. Feel bad, but I so don't want to know, just cannot face it ATM.

Ferrals I can understand you wanting to get as many as you can, especially with the genetic issues, but hopefully they'll all be great quality so if anything does arise, you'll have lots of blasties to draw on. Still in the TWW though, so maybe you won't need it after all..

Mildez, bring on that appointment! Not long to go now

MatthewsMum - somewhere along this journey a doc/practitioner said to me "you can't rush the flow of a river" - would be nice if we could though, wouldn't it? Hope your levels pick up and the transfer happens soon.

Porsche, hope the spotting has stopped (that would drive me nuts too!). Only a week until your appointment now

Sunbeam - hope you're feeling better today. Are you on progesterone support?

Sevie - how are you travelling?

Trea, Hubba_Bubba - how are you both?

MurryCod - can't wait to hear about your scan. Hang in there, your levels sound great

Sorry to miss anyone x

AFM, meh, my chart is not looking great and I need my chart to improve so we can start IVF :( She is adamant that until I can keep high temps after 'o'ing that I won't be able to carry a baby full term. I was doing well, but today (day 22) it is down to 36.3. Feel bummed out but it's been a busy week, I feel tired like I might be coming down with a cold, and I have fallen off the diet wagon several times so feel guilty. Going to have an early night tonight so hopefully that will help. It's FREEZING up here so happy to get into bed!

X

Hi Alice

My spotting stopped yesterday would you beleive it? I had to change our appointment to the day we see the Dr. We were having nurse co ordinator appointment on the 18th and the Dr appointment on the 22nd but Dh had some important football final or some such nonsense so I had to change it. I was lucky they had a spot on the 22nd at 1pm and the Dr appointment at 2:30pm. That's handy that way we only make 1 trip and only have 1 lot of parking to pay.

I just found out a friend killed herself her 5yr old son now has no parents i don't understand how anyone can do that to their child :cry:

mildez-good luck with your last cycle before ivf...craftymummy-have fun making up..alice-hope you can nip the flu in the bud,don't feel guilty about your diet,got to let loose sometimes..porshe-good timing for you,i had trouble working initial app's around dh work..ferrals-that's sad,does he have extended family to help him through this

Oh Ferrals :( :( that's awful...and the poor kid...ah so sad

ferrals - that is so terrible for the lil boy...sending heaps of hugs your way!! xoxox

Ferrals huge ((hugs)) I wonder if we know the same person. I too found out yesterday a lady I knew died (she has 2 boys although one not in her care and a bubba that passed away shortly after birth) I too am devastated and can't help but think if the system didn't fail her (that lead to the death of her baby) if this would not have happened. It really is heartbreaking to think of the children who are left without parents when it could be avoided.

Hi Girls,
It is really sad this poor girl has had such a hard life her mum died when she was 3 giving birth to her baby brother so her father had to raise her and her older brother and a newborn by himself he remarried a little later and was very close to her step mum i worked with her for while before she had to leave to help care for the family her stepmum has been fighting cancer for years and her dad broke his leg badly so has been unable to work.
I guess the pressure was to much for her with her own son to look after as well the poor little fella he will stay with his grandfather there is no one else the grandfather is not old about 45 so he should be ok.
It is such a terrible thing i look at my boys and i could never leave them.

Very sad news on here I too could never think of leaving my kids its so sad when some feel the only way out is to commit suicide, My uncle did it when he was only 43 and left his new grandson of only 4mnths old at the time, my cousin (his son ) never got over it and ended up killing himself driving his sports car too fast and full of alcohol at the age of 38 so sad, he left a 14yr old and a 12 yr old at the time so left his kids feeling like he had felt after his dad did himself in sometimes it goes on for a few generations !
Mildez sorry you know someone too how sad this world is at times !!!

4 days to go till my apt not sure how I feel about it now its nearly here, had a text to confirm I was going sat morning so had my chance to cancel and didn't !

Alice I hope you can find the strength to listen to your brother and his story sometime it may help you in the end ! I struggle everytime I speak to my son in the UK they are now 24wks pregnant and its so hard but for them I have to make the effort and hopefully they will do the same for me on of these days, don't feel bad about your diet I am the worlds worst ! for bad eating habbits ( fish and chips by the beach a few hours ago ! ) not really good when I need to loosed at least 15KG !!!!
We can't be perfect we need some nice treats in life !