LTTTC & Assisted Conception - November 2005 #2

[BellyBelly]

Baby Bliss, the girls were just helping you to put it permanently in your profile. If you go into your profile, you can put your blog in there and it will display without taking up any signature room. You will have a little button which says 'www' at the bottom of your posts for all to click on.

[starbright]

Cazz, you are truly an inspiration to me! As are all of you wonderful ladies!

I was brought to tears by your last post Cazz, as I know you are absolutely right. We just get caught up in the “why me” stage and forget about the good things that are happening or have happened around us.

Whenever I'm having a “feeling sorry for myself day” (which has been alot lately) my gorgeous hubby always tells me God gives everyone a cross to bare some crosses are heavy and some aren’t. He only gives you what He knows you can handle. Nothing gets thrown our way because we are weak, it is because we are strong and keep soldiering on!

I believe everything happens for a reason and it may not be known to us through our bad times, but it will shine through when the time is right. I believe I found this forum for a reason. I believe that I have met you all so we can stand by each other when we feel like everything else has let us down.

The wicked witch reared her ugly head today! She is making her this visit painful! But I’ll survive…knowing I only have to see her 1 more time before my next transfer!!

Congratulations Shez on 5 frosties! That’s fantastic!

Take Care All…
:smt055

[~WatchedByAngels~]

Afternoon Ladies

I think the Fat Lady is Starting to Sing for me too unfortunately. Have had cramps all night/ day and ( TMI) couple of time been to toilet today and have passed really long stringy red bits. No clots just stringy bits. So at this stage am thinking Monday's BT will be a waste of time.[/b]

[cazzoom]

I am sorry Chele!
Bleeding and spotting can be normal though. take it from someone who knows............................................. ..........



I went for my blood test this morning at 9.45am knowing the test would be BFN. Still since I started spotting on Tuesday It had only been browny coloured and with no pain or cramping of any kind so I discussed this with the nurse and she just said she would call with the result no matter what!

I had to go to the local shopping centre to get a few things and lo and behold at 10.45am exactly 1 hour after my blood was taken I started bleeding really red and really heavy. along with it came cramps and mind numbing pain and almost fainting!

fast forward to 3pm when the Nurse calls to tell me I have a BFP on my blood test. This time the Beta is worse than my first IVF cycle at only 25 and to not expect to keep the pregnancy. Too late I tell her. Bleeding started at 10.45

So there you have it. Pregnancy # 7 for the year 2005 Miscarriage(or really long stupid medical term of 'biochemical pregnancy') # 7 for 2005 making 8 pregnancies and 8 miscarriages in 17 months...... all before the 5 week mark!!!

I think in a way I would have preffered to just think of this as AF but in another way perhaps this is going to spurr on the doctor to finally believe me about my problem!!! And to get to fixing it!!

I think its sad that I cant even cry about this. losing a pregnancy should be something you cry about. Now I think that the thing I will be crying over is actually keeping one(but crying in a good way)

thanks again for the support!!

Cazz

[Baby~amore`]

I am so sorry Cazz

You have a very lovely DH too Starbright -goodluck that she is kind to you and leaves quickly and returns on time for your FET to happen asap -does your clinic close ?

[Baby~amore`]

Chele - hope the spotting is just that [-o<

[Baby~amore`]

Humphrey -
how are you travelling buddy - my obsession has started - KC and had a headache all day and twinges but I hate trying to analyse it - doesn't stop me :?
Must be tempting to have access to all those early HPT's

I will not ................
I will not ................
I will not ................

(at least for a few more days)

Writing lines for having naughty thoughts [-X

[~WatchedByAngels~]

Trsih and Cazz Considering the pain I am in with the cramping I doubt it will be a BFP

[cazzoom]

Hugs!!

I am sorry!

totally understand the pain thing!!

Cazz

[Melinda]

Cazz, I am so sorry to hear your news. Sending lots of hugs to you....

I'll keep everything crossed for you too Chele.........

[firemansgirl]

oh Cazz my heart aches for you darlin'.. i wish i could give you a big fat real hug and not just a cyber hug....

trish i am [-o< for you honey and i have such a good feeling for you and think it will probably be a i can just feel it for you honey..

Hi to everyone else and hope all is well..

love and hugs

leis xx

[Baby~amore`]

Leis -you are such a sweetie :flower:

[firemansgirl]

Mmm sometimes, my husband may argue that one with you.... but i don't know honey, i just feel this is it for you ... i just know it... i don't get this feeling very often, but last time i did, my girlfriend fell with IVF cycle No 3... who knows

Must say i am feeling good today, DH bought me a new car. 2005 XS subaru forrester, with all extras, roof racks for the boards, cargo barrier for the dog and tub liner in cargo also for the dog.. (until kids come along)

love and hugs

leis xx

[Baby~amore`]

honey -you deserve it !

[firemansgirl]

how you going today trish.. bubs is no doubt have a nice comfy nap in there? Any preggie signs yet darl? You know what lovey, i wouldn't even bother poas, as i think your BHCG will be huge, don't waste your money on sticks...

love leis xxx

[~WatchedByAngels~]

It's Officially Over this Month Update please Mods:
Take me off Nov and Add to Dec with ?? as depends on dates
Previous Cycle length 34
Months of TTC change to 30 months and add FET #2 BFN on end

Catch you all later

[Baby~amore`]

Leis -you know how to make us smile

Chele - so sorry honey - I wish I could send you a big hug and a box of klennex to wipe away the tears.

No symptoms - apart from insomnia after I go to sleep late in middle of night and wake early.
Keep checking to see if my (.Y.) are bigger but they don't seem so -just as small (.)(.) - this was first thing noticed last time but I was 6 wks by that time and AF was late too but it was Easter and I knew but didn't click (after all those yrs waiting -think I would have #-o )

[Melinda]

I'm so sorry Chele. I've updated your details for you.