Chele
I can totally feel where you are coming from.
I am now gearing myself up for a BFN! Its just been too much for me to handle today and as we have no snowbabies we probably wont be doing another cycle any time soon......if ever which means its going to be the end of the road for us whether we get a BFP or not!
Either way I will have to really re evaluate my life and the direction its going. I stopped my job to concentrate on TTC and now you have to have qualifications to do it so I have nothing to go back to. I will either need to find something that needs no qualifications or get some training to do something completely new. this all depends on the outcome of not oly fridays test but if its a BFP, a successful pregnancy.
I am so scared for myself now. All I ever wanted to be was a mother and I now could be faced with never having a baby its very scary.
I know getting a BFN will change my life also. Within myself, within my marriage and the way we do things.
I am still not trying to think too much about it all till friday but its hard not to!
It seems life is never meant to be simple and happy for me. Not completely anyway.

Okay so that turned into more about me than comforting you. sorry about that. I just want you to know I understand how wacky it can make you.
feel free to email me anytime

Cazz