Hi ladies

It's been quite a while since I posted. the site went bang and I couldn't get for ages.

well it was a negative for me after all that. The cycle was probably the worst yet in terms of having all the symptoms and getting nothing. I tested on Friday 14th, and started bleeding on the Wednesday before, which was awful. I had had really dore boobs, lots of veins, cramping and everything, but apart from that, I really felt that it had worked, so was devastated when the spotting got heavier and heavier, and the result was not a surprise.

Obviously we have had time to talk since then. I don't know why, but I really don'believe that IVF is necessarily the answer for us. I think perhaps the whole process is too much for my system. I have a deep down belief that we stand much more chance of getting pregnant naturally. I haven't relaxed or enjoyed myself in two years, so since the result we've been out, have a few glasses of wine, when we've wanted to and generallly let go of the whole burden of infertility. At the end of the day, the statistics of getting pregnant through IVF are against everyone, and supposing it doesn't work, I have ot live with myself some how. I must believe that my life is worth something even without a baby.

That all might sound a bit heavy, but really I feel a massive burden has been lifted. I think mood has a lot to do with fetility and conception. I think implantation hasn't been occurring because of something within me. What ever it is, I need rid of it if I'm going to have a baby at all.

I'm so sorry, I have read through the thread, but I haven't really sigested all the info yet. Has anyone got embyos on board? Or heading towards a cycle?

I will get round to personals.....promise