Oh Jane...i know how it is...i went through this a month or so ago, but i found that i was actually worse....the positiveness that i got from everyone here was so much better for me than holding my feelings in and letting them get to me.....
But saying that, i understand and respect your decision...you do what is best for you honey..
Take care of yourself and don't forget us all together..
Jane - Sweetie big *hugs* to you, I understand totally how you feel. I go up and down all the time and sometimes I think coming on here makes it worse for me. But then I remember that you girls are the ones who really know the pain & emotions of ttc and I find coming here gives me comfort. I have my close friends irl who are here for me but I know they don't really understand how I feel and sometimes when I am upset they just don't know what to say to me. Jane don't think that you can't contribute positively to the group, just knowing that you understand is all us girls need sometimes. I respect your decision to need some time away from here and I hope you find some comfort. Be kind to yourself, we'll miss you xox
shell - yay for the appointment. Glad you are feeling positive about the direction you are heading in.
Well the tests arrived, I have done a few (the obsessive testing begins & of course if I pee on it an hour later things are going to have changed!! You think by now I would have learnt). Faint lines have come up within the time frame, but nothing thats good enough for me. So the crazy waiting goes on............
Shan - I do too, I guess it is the price you pay for buying cheap tests off the internet - confusion!! But I have spent enough on tests over the years and I refuse to do it anymore. Trying to get over my POAS problem LOL
So what is going to happen is my lines will get darker and then you will get a BFP because I am not leaving here with out you!!
oh chookie, i wish that were true too, but i don't think it's going to happen any time soon!
I got my 7DPO bt results back today and they were only 13.
I've been crying my eyes out all afternoon....i thought that by upping the dose of clomid that i would get a better result...that's what they told me at the clinic anyway.....this is my lowest ever...i don't know how much more i can take of it all...it feels just like this: ](*,)
Oh Shan - I am so sorry about the bt results. That just sucks!! Is uping the does of clomid maybe too much?? I don't know much about clomid because I won't take it.
I so understand the I don't know how much more of this I can take. DH found me sitting on the kitchen floor crying my eyes out a few weeks ago & they were my exact words.
It's just plain NOT FAIR and it's hard and it's a merry-go-round that just keeps going and going and going and you just want it to be your turn to get off!
I am on MSN most days of you ever need to talk, I am here for you lovely.
Hello all you wonderful women. I just wanted to pop in here and spread some dust:
I haven't posted in quiteawhile but have been trying to catch up on everone's progress regularly. I am so saddened tonight to read that things are not going so well for many of you.
Sarams - I have been watching out for you to post and praying that this cycle was to be the one. I am so, so sorry hat things did not work out. You are such a brave person to be able to pick yourself up again and look to a future no matter what that may be. I truly hope you can find a path that leads to the child/children you deserve. I have a very good friend who was on the IVF patch for many years. Was at the point where specialist was talking egg donation. She eventually gave it a break to reconsider life options - went out drinking and enjoying herself and bam -natural pregnancy which has resulted in a beautiful little boy. Miracles DO happen!
Jane - you poor thing, you have travelled such a rough road lately. I understand the need for a break. It certainly can get a bit obsessive thinking and talking about TTC every single day. I hope some "time out" will help you gain a new perspective on life and that come a few months time you will be in the right frame of mind for the big steps you may be about to take. You too deserve and hopefully WILL get your BFP soon.
Shan - I am so sorry the clomid is not doing its thing for you. My specialist did warn me when I started on it that not everyone responds. Are you going to try injectables next? A lot of women will respond very well to FSH injections (puregon or GonalF) even if little respons eto Clomid. FSH acts directly on your ovaries wheras clomid has to act on your brain to then tell your ovaries what to do. Best of luck for whatever path you end up on.
Lil-Chookie - A faint +ve is still a +ve!! So praying for you that it becomes a true BFP very soon
Danni - did you say you got a faint +ve too?
Best of luck to all of you and may your dreams be fulfilled soon!
dust: 
guys!!
if you can't wait :luck: 
Trish 
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