LTTTC & Assisted Conception ~ April '06

[Danni]

here girls, hope you might enjoy this as much as i did:

Some dream of big houses
Or shiny new cars,
Ours is to someday
Hold a baby that’s ours.
Some dream of more money
To hoard and to keep,
Mine is to someday
Rock my baby to sleep.
Some dream of careers
In buildings so tall,
His is to someday
Toss his kid a baseball.
Some dream of great power
To be strong and tough,
Ours is to someday
Have a child to love.
Some dream of things
Such as silver and gold
Ours is of the day
Our child we’ll hold.

[*Shan*]

ooohhh Dan...that's beautiful...

[shellhendo]

hi girls,
thanks for thinking about me Jane, still no news on our appointment, i spoke to our specialists receptionist yesterday, she said she was sending them the referal then and they would get in contact with us so i am trying my hardest/best to be paitent but unfortunatley that is not a strong point of mine, but i now realise it is going to be something i need to work on, mum suggested every time i was frustrated etc i go and pull out some weeds or do some housework, as well as count to ten, so i did unpack more boxes we moved in two months ago and set up my sewing room, so will get a couple of projects on the go,
danni that poem was lovely
lil chookie, any news yet fingers crossed,
well i had better go and get some dinner on
only two days till the weekend got to love two 3 day weeks in a row

[sararms]

Hi ladies

It's been quite a while since I posted. the site went bang and I couldn't get for ages.

well it was a negative for me after all that. The cycle was probably the worst yet in terms of having all the symptoms and getting nothing. I tested on Friday 14th, and started bleeding on the Wednesday before, which was awful. I had had really dore boobs, lots of veins, cramping and everything, but apart from that, I really felt that it had worked, so was devastated when the spotting got heavier and heavier, and the result was not a surprise.

Obviously we have had time to talk since then. I don't know why, but I really don'believe that IVF is necessarily the answer for us. I think perhaps the whole process is too much for my system. I have a deep down belief that we stand much more chance of getting pregnant naturally. I haven't relaxed or enjoyed myself in two years, so since the result we've been out, have a few glasses of wine, when we've wanted to and generallly let go of the whole burden of infertility. At the end of the day, the statistics of getting pregnant through IVF are against everyone, and supposing it doesn't work, I have ot live with myself some how. I must believe that my life is worth something even without a baby.

That all might sound a bit heavy, but really I feel a massive burden has been lifted. I think mood has a lot to do with fetility and conception. I think implantation hasn't been occurring because of something within me. What ever it is, I need rid of it if I'm going to have a baby at all.

I'm so sorry, I have read through the thread, but I haven't really sigested all the info yet. Has anyone got embyos on board? Or heading towards a cycle?

I will get round to personals.....promise

[Danni]

thats great that those thoughts are working for you sara!

i wish i could find a way to live my burden and put my feet up too/

well done on easing your mind and i hope things all fall into place for you

[-o<

[SuziQ]

Sararms said

I must believe that my life is worth something even without a baby

:smt023 That's so true. For all women, whether you end up being a mum or not. You're still you - valuable person.
I've known a few women who turned around once their kids had left home and realized that somewhere along the line they'd lost their own identity and become just 'Johnny or Mary's mum' - the woman herself had disappeared.
Good luck S
Sue

[*Shan*]

Oh Sara - we all though that this was your month too....You seem to be in a good spot mentally regarding your future plans....As much as i want a baby, sometimes i have to think to myself...will life be so bad for us if we weren't able to have kids...it sort of puts things into perspective....

[lil_chookie]

sara - I am sorry things went the way they did but I am glad to see you have been able to take some time for yourself & look at things the way you have. Our lives are all worth so much even if we are not blessed with a baby, we have to keep reminding ourselves of that all the time (I know I need to do it more often)

shell - tests didn't arrive so not testing yet which is a good thing (I think!!)

As for me, temps still up although I am having trouble sleeping at the moment :fuming: so I don't know if that is effecting them. So the wait goes on.............

xox

[Danni]

oh chookie your chart is fantastic!!!

did you get your hpts today?

test tomorrow! i am so excited!!

[firemansgirl]

Good luck lil chookie for tomorrow i hope you get the big fat + you are after...

Sara, your posting is quiet true in what you are saying.. i feel similar to you also... I also feel that i will not ride the ivf rollercoaster for years and years... i will not give up TTC naturally but won't let my life revolve constantly around trying to have a child... I believe our life paths are already chosen and we can not change whatever is already set....

Take care of yourself sweetie...

love leis xx

[shellhendo]

fingers crossed for when you test chookie

[lil_chookie]

Danni - Tests didn't arrive, maybe tomorrow. I am glad I want to wait as long as possible to test anyway (says she the most impatient person in the world). BB's are not as sore today, still huge and swollen but not as sore. I've got to this point before and once the BB's stopped hurting it was all down hill from there. Lovin your positive vibe though babe!!

[*Shan*]

Good Luck Lil-Chookie - Fingers crossed you're the first one out of here.....Danni is right...your chart looks fantastic

[lil_chookie]

Thanks Shan - you girls are keeping my positive vibe going!!

xox

[shellhendo]

hi girls, well i just got our appointment in the mail, we are booked in for May the 16th, which is just over 3 weeks away, so feeling quite excited, it is also a week before my birthday so lots of fun things coming up, i am really excited now as i finally feel as if we are on the way to starting our own family \/
michelle

[*Shan*]

Thats great Michelle...now you've got something to concentrate on...3 weeks will fly by...good luck..

[~Jane~]

Shell - how fantastic you got in so quick, good luck with the appointment

Sararms - so sorry to hear that things didn't go well for you with your last cycle, you and Suzi make such good points

everyone tww-ing - hope the wait is going well

me - well I have made a decision that I am going to have a bit of a break from the thread, I really think it's becoming counter-productive for me as I worry enough about all of this and have been dwelling on it all waaaay too much. Seeing that I am going to be in limbo land until July anyway I think I might just take things easy. Plus everytime I come on I seem to feel worse lately and dont feel I can contribute in a positive way to the group. I really do appreciate all of the wonderful support and advice that you have all given me though, it's just that I am extrememly down about it all at the moment and need to find another way of coping if that makes sense.

I will pop in from time to time but wont be in here quite as often. I hope everyone has lots of luck.

Cheers

Jane

[SuziQ]

Awww, sorry to hear that Jane, but I do understand where you're coming from.
Don't be too much of a stranger.
Take care of your heart.
Sue