Oh God! SO know what you mean! This has happened with the majority of our friends - other than one couple - we are the only childless ones of all our friends and our family... one thing I realised is that both us and the other couple who are trying, are the only ones who got married first - so am wondering whether we did something wrong there!!??

Anyways, I know it gets annoying when you are the one who always has to put on the fake grin and enjoy their babies/pregnancy. But where are they when you are balled up crying hysterically after yet another disappointment? They dont know - but then, how can they?

I find Im a fertility good luck charm! Everyone Im around or knows fall pg! Friends have even joked about me opening a clinic where people come in and just sit with me for a while and they will fall! I have been bridesmaid 3 times now and each time the bride has fallen immediately before the wedding! I am to be a bridesmaid again in about a year and have told my friend to start preparing for her pregnancy now.

I joke about it, a lot. But yeah, it hurts, it tears me apart, it has changed me to someone I often feel I dont really know, and it has put my dreams/hopes all on hold until I get this all sorted. It sucks, but I dont know what else there is to do, right now...

Hopefully all of us wont have to endure it much longer...