after i posted my reply i was sitting here reading back and it suddeny hit my that in a couple of months i might be pregnant. This was a great thought but it did make me think about the what ifs, what if it works and i lose it again, what if im a horrible mother? I dont know why it is in my mind but i think its that i try sooo hard to get it that i put so much pressure on myselve and worry so much about another misscarrge or other things that may happen.
does anyone else feel this or am i just having a mental moment?
It's only natural to worry about the 'what ifs', but these thoughts don't serve us too well.
Each time I catch myself thinking negatively (and believe me I have many of those moments!) I take a step back and remind myself that I'm worrying about something that hasn't happened yet and may never happen. I'm wasting precious time on negative thoughts, so I remind myself to be present and focus on the good things that are happening, e.g. that I'm taking positive steps forward to have a baby rather than 'what if I am an eternal infertile'. And then I tell myself to lighten up and think about the good things I have in my life.
Sometimes this is all easier said than done, especially when AF arrives, but I know that if I spend too much time worrying then I'm not actually achieving anything. I'm just putting myself into a self-induced state of distress, which isn't good for me or my future bubba.
Mez Moz - I was CONVINCED AF was on her way, as I was cramping from a few days before and had a spot a few days before. It was only when AF didn't show that evening that I "wondered" and did a test, but as it was faint, I still didn't beleive it and thought that AF was still coming! It's quite funny now when I think about it, as god knows how many months now, I have been analysing every symptom, and convinced they were all early pg signs, only to be disappointed, and the last two times I fell pg, I was convinced I wasn't as I wasn't having fake symptoms!
This was my first cycle of clomid - the FS wanted me to do 2 cycles of clomid before starting IVF, so we weren't even expecting the clomid to work!!
Tammara - I have "those moments" all the time. I don't want to lose another one, and I also worry about what sort of parents we'll make, but I KNOW that we'll be OK, and better than some that we see!! And that our child will be loved because it is SOO wanted. hugs.
Well, I spoke to FS yesterday, and they want BT results first before they see me, so I'm off to the GP today, to get my BT.
*babydust*
Last edited by onthefly; January 5th, 2010 at 11:54 AM.
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Milly I'm so happy for you!I know what you mean about looking so closely for symptoms...I've been peeing more than usual today so I'm thinking, ooh could that be a sign??? The 2WW can be torture!
Let me know how you go with your FS... I've been wondering what happens with FS when fall pg. Do you have to pay them another $90 just so they can say "congratulations" !!!Do they say you are in a high risk category coz you were on clomid? It will be a happy day when I can say "bye bye" to my FS!
Forstly Congrats to Milly, Such great news. When i went for my Bloods and got told i was Pg i went home and did a Pg test just to see myself and the line was very faint it took a few days for the line to get much darker, CONGRATS..
Tammara glad you got over your "moment" It gets so hard sometimes but you really do need to stay positive ike you said you might be pg in a few months so you need all the positive energy that you can get atm. The amount that you are working to try and get this little bub should reassure you that you are going to be a wonderful mother Good luck with the councelling. Great to hear its all coming along.. Go with it and try and enjoy.
As for me im feeling much better, nausea has pretty much dissapeared, just getting a few headaches and not sleeping the best but i can cope with that. 15 weeks and counting yay
Mez Moz - FS wants me to have an early dating scan (at 8w) and will see me soon after, so I guess it's not just "$90 & congrats", but then 8w is still another 3 weeks away, and my appt isn't until another week or so after that. So I'm not sure what they would be able to do anyway?????
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