after i posted my reply i was sitting here reading back and it suddeny hit my that in a couple of months i might be pregnant. This was a great thought but it did make me think about the what ifs, what if it works and i lose it again, what if im a horrible mother? I dont know why it is in my mind but i think its that i try sooo hard to get it that i put so much pressure on myselve and worry so much about another misscarrge or other things that may happen.

does anyone else feel this or am i just having a mental moment?