Ok, so I am starting to freak out about my BT tomorrow. I dont think I can handle another rejection and am starting to get emotional just thinking about it. I know I am very emotional already, but when I think about tomorrow I feel like I could burst into tears. I hate, hate, hate this part of TTC. The lead up, the transfer, the 1st week I can handle, but the second week makes me very anxious.

I wonder why the universe provided the money for this round, timed it so its our anniversary only to be another possible rejection. I know it seems like I am getting ahead of myself, I guess its my sad way of preparing myself for tomorrow. I hate that dreaded call. I hate that POAS even more, so will leave it up to the universe to decide my fate.

Sorry for the all about me post. DH left this morning and we slept in and were in a mad rush for him to be on the road. Its his last week away as next week is the launch of our new business. Even more stress!