KMond: CONGRATULATIONS!!! wishing you a H & H !

to all the newbies!

Jodz: Great to hear about your rising levels!

To all other ers, thinking of you and wishing you all

AFM, having a pretty rough time right now. Since about 10pm last night have been having the same AF pains I always get the day before she arrives each month. No blood yet but feeling pretty fluidy and have all the symptoms of AF so am really down.

Did another POAS this morning then also tried a new brand as well, and same thing, same really faint line doesn't seem to be getting any clearer so thinking maybe it's the Crinone gel. I hate this part, it's so much harder than I thought it would be, or maybe I'm just not as stong as I thought. And it doesn't help that my big mouth DH told EVERYONE exactly when I was having ET so I'm also being bombarded with questions of "any news yet". I just want to go into hiding for a few days becasue these people that are asking aren't asking because they care, they're purely to get the next gossip scoop and it annoys the crap out of me. Sunday is going to be agony because I set myself a goal to be pg by this Mother's Day.

Sorry about the whinge and the "me" post but really needed to vent. Might try to stop thinking and to get some sleep in the hope that tomorrow is over as quickly and painlessly as possible.

and for you all. Night.