LTTTC Two Week Wait - Dec to Jan

[Moonflower]

Hello.

I’ve finally joined in the TWW but it seems that at the moment I’m on my own. Of course, this is my umpteenth TWW but my first as an IVF TWWer.

I’m still unsure how I feel about being here. It’s so different to all the other times. Knowing that your egg has fertilized but not knowing if it is continuing to grow and implant. It is very strange to me. I feel a bit nervous and yucks in the guts but I'm sure the latter is because of the pessaries. I worry (ever so slightly) about taking pessary symptoms for pregnancy symptoms. *sigh* I don't want to jump too far ahead of myself!

I have decided to adopt not just a positive mind set but also that DH and I should encourage our embies (I’m incubating two because I’m so old – thanks FS ) to grow and burrow when the time is right. That being said, I’ve instructed DH to speak words of support to them. He feels stupid but is willing to try. I feel a bit daft too but kind words spoken to plants work, so why not this? C’mon embies!!

We also have been blessed to have a third embie (aka threebie) still in the lab. She started, then stopped, then started again. Clearly a nutbag and takes after me. So not only are we hopeful that our twobies do their job, but also that threebie continues to thrive for use a bit later. We shall find out her fate on Saturday.

Looking forward to hearing from some / any / one of you soon.

[WaitingAwaiting]

Hello there!

I'm not a TWW right now (but maybe soon!) but thought I'd sa hello and wish all the embies GOOD LUCK on their journey!





Positive, happy, sticky vibes to all!!

[Moonflower]

Thanks WaitingAwaiting. I need everything I can get!

I hope all is going well with you. I've only had the embies in for a day and already I'm starting to be concerned. I've had mild cramping on and off all day. As far as I know, cramping is not a good sign, is it? Isn't it your body's way of trying to get rid of what's inside your uterus? *sigh* I can't believe I have another 13 days of this. I'm going to go completely insane.

[WaitingAwaiting]

Thought I'd give you TWW'ers a giggle.

I was driving to work this morning and realised "You know when you're TTC when...you see car number plates that contain letters like CM, DTD, BD or BFP and wonder if they're some kind of sign..."



Maybe it's just me but hope it put a smile on your dial

[Moonflower]

Thanks for the chuckle WaitingAwaiting! Just what I (we all) need.

Here’s one for you. You know how women talk about getting “Baby Brain” and they get all forgetful and do silly things? Well, I’m 2 days into my TWW and already I’ve started. I went to work today with my shirt on INSIDE OUT!! Arghhhhh!!! I’m totally blaming the twobies (2 embryos), even though it’s completely illogical. And yes, I’m laughing at myself.

Feeling much better today as I spent a ridiculous amount of time on the net last night and discovered that there are loads of women who have mild (and even severe) cramping in their tww and they were pregnant. Some even after the tww. It’s just another thing that we need to try not to focus on or make a big deal of. Which is what I’m going to do. I’m letting it go. You can’t see me, but I just brushed off my hands to signify ‘I’m letting it go’.

How's everybody doing today?

[WaitingAwaiting]

Hahaha too funny - but I do that without a TWW! lol

here's hoping you have twobie brain!!

Glad you're feeling better today! I'm doing ok- looking forward to my FS visit on Tuesday (but that's another thread!)

[Taurean78]

Feeling much better today as I spent a ridiculous amount of time on the net last night and discovered that there are loads of women who have mild (and even severe) cramping in their tww and they were pregnant. Some even after the tww. It’s just another thing that we need to try not to focus on or make a big deal of. Which is what I’m going to do. I’m letting it go. You can’t see me, but I just brushed off my hands to signify ‘I’m letting it go’.

Hi there to all,

I haven't been on here in absolute ages but thought I would take a peek for old times sake. I wanted to reassure Moonflower about the cramping. I too had awful amounts of cramping after ET. I would frequently wake at around 3:30am and beg DH to get the panadeine and heat pack for me (even though acupuncturist told me to stay away from it). I would say at times it was agonising and it really played tricks with my mind. As it turns out, I got my BFP that cycle as did a colleague who was seeing the same FS as me and was a few weeks behind me. Try if you can to stay positive. IMO the 2WW was the most difficult stage of the TTC/IVF process. I even called my clinic and begged to have my BT moved forward as I was sure I was going to lose it at a child at work (i'm a teacher). Do what you can for yourself in terms of being relaxed and in a good headspace.

Best wishes to all in this thread.
xxTaurean 78

[Moonflower]

Thanks for that Tauren78. It does help to know that I'm not the only one and it's not necessarily a bad thing. I will take your advice and keep a level head.

I've had a moments today where I start to obsess and DH brings me right back to reality and I'm all good again!

I hope all you ladies out there are doing well and having a good, relaxing weekend.

Cheers
Moonflower

[murraycod]

Hey Moonflower you ain't here on your own anymore...you have me to put up with!
As you know already, I am 2dpET, and I am having cramping too. Actually cramping would be the wrong word to describe it, it is more like a pinching feeling on the inside, just today, like every now and then someone gives me a good strong pinch, and it hurts! Had some mild cramping yesterday too. Oh im going nutts already.
I hope the cramping for you atleast eases for you XXX

Every twinge seems to be a reminder of what we are trying to ignore ATM!!!

I have no idea how I am going to survive the next 2wks. This is agony.
One minute I feel positive, the next I am terrified of the heartbreak, but I guess so many women have been here, and did it with stride.

FGS shall be joining soon too!

WaitingAwaiting you got a smile outa me!X And yes, I do that.......

Taurean, thank you for your advice and reassurance, very much appreciated X

[Moonflower]

Hi MC! So glad you’re here!

Those pains you’re having (the pinching ones), well, I got those yesterday too. But also I still have the mild “period pain” cramping. The nurses assure me this is all normal. So I say, bring it!

I am plodding along the same as you. One minute up, the next anxious. I really want to be excited and yet I just can’t bring myself to get there yet. I’m sure we’re not on our Pat Malone! Trying my best to keep my mind on other things.

Nothing much has been happening with me today. Except that I’ve started to suffer two of the many side affects of Crinone – headache and thrush. Ugh! How I love being a girl.

How are you going?
MF xx

[murraycod]

Moonflower seems as though my body is EXACTLY one day behind you, because the pinching feeling I had to one side yesterday, has turned today into constant mild AF like cramping across the lowest part of my tummy.

I am in a moorbid mood, I can't keep my mind off it because the crampiness is there all the time, I have been so depressed all day thinking it is over already, but if you say it's normal, that has eased my mind a little.

Honestly, to me the needles, scans, bloodtests, EPU and ET was the easy part, this is so darn hard it is eating at me ever so slowly.

Sorry not my chirpy self hun, I hope I can get out of this mood, I wanted to stay positive no matter what...for all of us XXX

[JBM]

just sending some good luck vibes to all the TWW. it is amazing how lonh two weeks can take. good luck

[Moonflower]

Thanks for the wishes JBM. We need everything we can get and appreciate it even more!

MC – don’t you worry about not being so cheery. I too was getting quite depressed last night and again this morning. Then I remembered that depression is another side effect of the Crinone. That and the ‘not knowing’ which completely does your head in! You hang in there with me girl. We can do this.

My DH has been surprisingly VERY supportive and even offered to cook dinner last night. He is the burrito king in our house. It’s the only thing he knows how to make! I'm never sure if I should tell him how I'm feeling or what's going through my mind as I know it gets him down. But then, a problem shared is a problem halved (that's why we're all here, right?). So we just both talk it through (not too much) and I'm pleased to say, we've grown even closer over this past week.

I’m feeling better today. Not so much AF type cramping which is good. But then, of course, I start to worry. Why aren’t I cramping so much? What does this mean? If cramping is good, then no cramping must be bad. Arghhhhhh!!!!! Ridiculous, aren’t I? And of course, I’ve just stood up to give my boss something and I felt some cramping so now I feel better. *sigh*

I hope you are having a better day today. Do you find that being at work helps to keep your mind off it? It’s so easy to fall back into obsessing about every little thing. All I can tell you is that I stick my nose in a book if I realise that my “curiosity” turns into an “all consuming fixation”. So maybe that idea can help you too.

Let me know how you’re doing today.

MF xx

[murraycod]

Thanks MF

I have started reading a good book today, and it has helped keep my mind buisy whilst reading, but as soon a I stop...!!!
The cramping for me has not subsided yet, and thisafternoon I have developed a strange pull in my left groin area, like I have pulled a muscle or something, but I dunno, could be completely unrelated.

Well if I keep on track with you, the cramps should subside tomorrow then!!

I spoke to a friend today who has 3 children thanks to IVF, and she said she had no cramping at all, even with the cycles that weren't a success, so she was not any help at all....'sigh' XX

Take care bebe, we will get throgh this.

Hey, by the time FGS makes it here, we will have both gone mad!!! What good will we be then!!!

JBM, thank you for dropping by, much appreciated X

[Moonflower]

Hi MC.

How goes it with you and your embies? How is the cramping / groin pull? Hope you’re doing well and that the pain isn’t too awful.

I had bad day yesterday. Not sure if it’s the drugs making me feel down but I was all but convinced that this cycle hasn’t worked. I must fess up. I spent a lot of time (a couple of hours) looking at loads of stories on the net about women who were at the same stage as us and loads of them didn’t manage pregnancies. And then loads of them did. I just didn’t know what to think. And I still have a week before BT! My DH has banned me from POAS before the BT. Not that I would. If it’s –ve, it’ll kill me and if it’s +ve and the BT –ve, well, I don’t even want to contemplate that. You would think I’d have taken my own advice, huh? I don’t know what got into me. Am trying desperately to get some +ve thoughts back into my head. All that and my damn thrush is getting worse. Have started using a cream which I didn’t want to because I’ve had enough drugs, thank you very much. *sigh*

How are you going? I so hope that you are doing better than me. I want you to be really +ve about everything that’s going on with you right now. I want you to be relaxed and focusing on the babe you’ll have soon. I want every good thing for you MC. I also want you to not get all morose like me!! I know I’ll come good.

I think that you’re absolutely right – we will both be absolutely mad and it will all fall on FGS to rescue us! Poor thing – she has no idea! *chuckle*

Let me know how you’re doing.

MF xx

[murraycod]

Yes, poor FGS, she is going to wonder what drugs we have actually been on! *chuckle*
OMG if I have not admitted myself into the Psych ward by the end of next week, I will be very suprised.

My cramps have seemed to gotten a bit stronger today. Just like a nasty nasty AF comming. I feel very gloomy, and sure it has not worked, and I have to admit, I spent about 3 hrs on the net yesterday, and was the first thing I did when I got up, checking "Cramping after ET, 5dp4dt, all that stuff" and I still just get myself more down, but cant help myself!!!

Think I may ring the nurses thisavo, just to let them know about the strong constant cramping, gone on for 3-4 days now...

OOOh MF, this is torture, .... have you been cramping since yesterday??? Swap you for the thrush!!! ;>

[fatgirlslim]

Oh lordy... this has to be the ONLY place someone would swap severe cramping for thrush...

Stay positive girlies...!!! See you BOTH here on Saturday

L xx

[terry]

Hi Ladies

Just thought I'd drop in and offer some advice. I've been in a 2WW thread quite a few times last year so I can relate to how you are feeling. As you progress through the anxiety starts to kick in and you think your going crazy...just hang in there as there are no wrong or right symptoms unfortunately. When I was part of the forum ladies where cramping and getting a BFP and other ladies where getting absouletly nothing and also getting a BFP.

Hang in there and I wish you both every success