LTTTC Two Week Wait - Feb/Mar 2009

[sammiejam]

Hi Gals!

Well I have just spent 15 minutes writing my story and introducing myself and wouldnt ya know it, I somehow lost it all...

So I will start again. I am so happy to have found you all, it has been a really comfort to me over the last few days. I am going stir-crazy. I started reading this thread from when it was the Dec 2ww and I feel like I know you all. I am so happy for everyone with a BFP and have been nearly in tears for the BFN's. I think I will be in that group soon...

About me: This is my first IVF cycle. I have had 3 ruptured ectopic pg's and had lost hope of ever having anymore babies. I have 2 boys in their late teens from my first marriage and I am so grateful for them but my DH is really desperate for a bub that he has raised from scratch. He loves the boys but he didnt experience them as babies or toddlers, I totally understand where he is coming from. Anyways, he convinced me that IVF is nothing like the hideous experience of the ruptured ectopic's so we saved up and here we are.

I had a fresh ET on the 11th of feb (blasto) so I am nearly a week into my 2ww. I am seriously freakin LOSING IT. My AF is due today (I think but who knows at this point, my cycles are so messed up) and no sign of it so far but I think that is just the dreaded Crinone doing its thing.

I have had some twinges and cramping since the ET but yesterday it reached a peak. I am constantly aware of my lower torso. Its so weird though because it is not like my usual AF cramps. These are spread right across my abdomen and are sort of a continuous squeezing ache where as my normal AF cramps are sharp, stabbing pains that come from which ever ovary is releasing an egg. A couple of nights ago I woke up as I felt like a finger was poking into me from the inside. I think I must have just been dreaming though.
The pain I have now feels more like the pain from my ectopics which is why I am triggering so badly I think. I dont have any of my other AF symptoms. My skin is clear, I'm not craving sweet-then-salty, I'm not shrieking like a fish-wife at DH (much) its just the cramping and the head-ache. I have sore bb's, but again, crinone. I know, i know - ignore the symptom's...

I feel like its impossible to get pg on the first cycle. I could not be that lucky.

I have a question, my doc (who I call The Absent Minded Proffessor) did not schedule me a bt. He told me to take a test (didnt specify what kind) on sunday the 22nd and I have an appt with him for the 23rd. He said if the witch makes an appearence between now and then to call him. As my AF is due today, would anything show up on a home test in 5 days? I am sceptical...

I am resisting the urge to go to the chemist and start an insane regime of testing. I am supposed to go and pick up some Elevit - HOW THE HECK WILL I STOP MYSELF???

So thats me. Here with you guys, 2ww-ing, on pins and needles.

Hugs to everyone.

Sammie.