LTTTC Two Week Wait - March 2008 #1

[slyder]

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[Lissie]

Salt,

I was so hoping when i opened this thread up that you would have had a BFP.
I am so so sorry sweetie - it never gets any easier. As far as your fears about not being a mum - i have had them many a time but i REFUSE for that to happen - i will do everything i possibly can to make it and SO WILL YOU. You will be a mummy - i know it. If you need to take time out do so - do what feels right for you.
I just know for me i need to talk to other woman who understand. WE are all different - and maybe you need some space and thats okay to.
Please take care of yourself sweetie - cry - thats all i have been doing all afternoon. It helps to get it out - but it has given me a dreadful headache.
Or maybe the headache was because a had a couple of drinks as i have not had a drink for over a month.

[scooby]

Oh SP i have been stalking all day waiting for your results, im so so sorry my luv and it is just hideous that you cant get stuck back in i think thats what keeps us going. I know its easier said than done but please dont think your a failure, your fertility status does not effect who you are as a person, and you are one of the most caring people i have come across on BB. Hang in there sweetie and do what is right for you. really big cyberhugs SP thinkng of you.

[saph204]

Salt

Hun i am so sorry. Take your time to make your decisions. Talk it over with your DH and anyone who will listen until you feel comfortable wit your decision. Sending you lots of you will be a mummy just when the time is right for you i truely belive this.Keep talking.

[MeredithD]

SP and Lissie - so, so sorry to hear of your results. I wish I could say something to make things better but nothing much does.
Lissie - I went through a long period before having my DS,where I wondered whether I would every have a child. It scared me so much because I just didn't want a life without children. I think I know how you feel right now.Time and patient loved ones around you will help and you will feel positive again. The month break sucks but maybe consider some alternative tx in this time. I did acupuncture and I really think it helped.
Maybe you should have another talk to DH and FS about IVF?

Collo - Congratulations. Sooo well done! Praying those levels just go up from here

[deni]

Salt and Lissie - so sorry about your disappointing results. I was really hoping this would be the month for you both :hugs: Salt - I know what you mean, only 4 weeks ago I was thinking that I can't even IMAGINE myself getting pregnant because it seems to have been taking so long. It becomes harder and harder to visualise the further from start point you get. BUT that point of view can change in an absolute instant - and I feel so confident that you - all of you - will get there.

I think I've mentioned this before, but this helped me : planted some gypsophila (baby's breath) seeds, and I watered them daily. It was exciting when they started to sprout, and the month they flowered, we got our BFP. Probably a fluke but I think it was helpful fo rme to focus on it and feel like I was doing something..

The BB break I took myself also for about 6 weeks, not to escape everyone on BB but to try and take my focus away from it a bit - when I was ready I came back. So do what you think is right - you could even just stalk - for me, I found it helpful to only stalk the pregnancy announcements!

Kyles68, so glad you got to do IVF - I am so so glad we went with the doctor's advice. May I ask, are you with Pivet? I'm interested as I know other girls weren't given the chance of IVF with only 1 egg, they were from other clinics - but I guess it depends on how other things look, they must have been happy with your hormone levels. I'll send heaps of your way !

Collo - fantastic news !!! Congratulations!!! - hope those levels continue to rise !!!!

to everyone !

[Acacia]

Lissie, I'm really sorry to hear of your BFN Please take care of yourself, and I'm sure you and DH will be each other's comfort in this time. I hope that you are doing ok - I get such headaches when I cry too! I hope the crying has been cathartic for you and that you start to feel better and can move forward when the time is right for you :hugs:

Salt, hun, I'm so sorry that you've had a double whammy today with the news :hugs: You need to take time to look after yourself now, and I'm glad to here this is what you're going to do, whichever way in which you need to do it. It's really important that you don't blame yourself for what is happening. It is not your fault, hun. As scooby has said, it has nothing to do with who you are as a person.

When you are feeling ready, focussing on the next step, whether it be IVF or not will help you to deal with and put to the side the terrible fear that you will never get pregnant. And it is just a fear. The stats say that the chances of IUI achieving a pregnancy in any one cycle is less than either a fresh or thaw cycle in IVF, so there is tonnes of hope for you still in the future, if and when you need to cross the path of IVF.

But the first thing is that you look after yourself and to take time to recover from the fear and frustration and sense of failure that your heart is heaping on you at the moment. Know that I am - we are all - thinking of you and sending you tonnes of love.

Hang in there, hun. Give yourself time.

Many hugs to you and to Lissie,

Miss C :hugs:

[saph204]

Carla and waiting1 hi cycle buddies how are you feeling.

One minute I think this time for sure and then the next I think AF is about to arrive. But I know that it is still to early for that. Having a few crampy times, not like AF cramp more like a stitch in the ovaries I am wondering if maybe i was a little overstimulated. Who knows only the 25th will tell.

Does anyone know how long after last pregnyl injection can you do a HPT?

I thought i might be able to cheat as i was due for BT on the 24th.

Hoping everyone had a lovely weekend and we need lots of BFP this week come on we can all do it!

[waiting1]

Saph

I am on nautral cycle so no meds at all - but I feel like I have a dull ache in my uterus. not cramping - im just aware its there - almost like I feel like I am hungry so I keep eating but it doesn't subside...

I live in Albert park so just had those massive planes flying by !
I really want the time to pass so that I know - but at the same time if its another BFN - then its another month before I try again. This is my 5th time (4th FET) and I am becoming a bit despondent to be honest. I feel like it is never going to work.
I hope this one is sticking.... but the others haven't so I am sceptical.

Hope you travelling ok - the 25th still seems so far off ! I will do a HPT next friday which is when AF is due. If I make it past that then something has happened (only once so far) so I guess time will tell. Thinking of you.

Waiting

[scooby]

Hi Girls
hope your all havin a great weekend. Well im out as af showed up Feeling rather despondant and freaked out at the thought of IVF. Sorry no personals i will keep lurking to see whos doing what. Good luck to you all, i guess i should be movin to LTAC but i kinda like it here, where i know everyone !!! Wishing you all BFP. good luck for monday kyles.

[Acacia]

Scooby, sorry to hear your news :hugs:
I hope you're doing ok. It's pretty scary when you have to look at your next option being a step to the next thing i.e. IVF. But there is lots of hope ahead of you.
Hugs, hun. We're all here for you if you need.

Waiting1 - glad to see you back here I am relatively similar to you in the pace that I am following one cycle after another one without a break and the moment, and I"m not surprised it is all wearing you out - it's certainly wearing me out. Don't be hard on yourself, and try not to loose hope. If it helps (it helps me at the moment) that the fact is that most women who continue on with IVF treatment - even when it gets past half a dozen times - end up with success and the dream come true. It just takes some women longer than others, even when there is nothing wrong. Hang in there, hun. Hope the wait goes quickly until Friday for you.


BT in the morning for me, but I'm pretty sure I'll be back into another FET cycle in the next week. POAS on Friday morning was negative, which would have been the day of AF on a natural cycle for me, so I'm not hopeful for tomorrow. I wasn't going to say anything about it until after the BT, but putting it out there now is helping me prepare for the most likely result, IYKWIM?

Good Luck Kyles, I'll have everything crossed and be seriously pretzelling for you all morning till we hear your news.

Hope everyone is going ok and had a good weekend

Miss C

[Mon]

Hey ladies ... I probably should be in bed resting up (but of couse cant sleep)! I have my transfer tomorrow so look forward to joining you in the 2WW! I am having a blasty transferred. Does anyone know on which day it implants?
Looking forward to seeing lots of BFPs in the coming weeks so we can all move across to the PG threads!
Mon

[kyles68]

Hi Ladies

Scooby - so sorry that your AF arrived - why can't she pack her bags and go on holidays for 9 months like she is supposed to. Thank you so much for your luck and good wishes for tomorrow

Miss C - I have everything crossed for both of us for BT in the morning You know you can never rely on POAS - they have been known to be wrong before. It is now 11pm sunday night here in Perth and I am too scared to go to bed cos I know I won't be able to sleep - every twinge, ache etc I keep thinking here comes AF. I have also been rehearsing in my head the phone call tomorrow afternoon - please let us both have good news.

Next time I log on tomorrow I will know my result

Talk to you all then xx

[saph204]

Well my ovary pain has changed today to more like AF pain so not very positive anymore in fact just waiting now for Af to arrive. Will probably be tuesday night. All this waiting and speculating really does your head in. You become so intune with your body that every little twinge has your flip flopping from yes to no. Although when i was preg with my son i had AF pain just like normal didn't know i was preg until I was seven weeks. So who knows I really need to stop thinking about it. Have decided that if we get a BFN we are going to have a break for a while. Two reasons the travelling got to me ( three hour round trips to the clinic for scans with a screaming child in the back did me in) and for a more selfish reason that many of you might not understand I do not want another christmas baby.

[waiting1]

missc you are lovely ! thankyou !
did another HPT today - neg. all over for me. I am really crampy too. AF due tomorrow and I am sure will come right on time.

2 left. If I have to do another stim am going to grow to blast definately !

happy easter. Miss c carla saph - Good luck Tues. tHinking of you all xxxx

[Carla MP]

Waiting..I still think you are testing too early. Your testing BEFORE AF.....of course your going to get BFN.....just hang in there. Has AF arrived????? Oh please let YOU be wrong and ME br right for you!!!
I was feeling quite off yesterday.....nauseas all night but I think it would Be too early to have any of that...I think Im just anxious......still a few pains...hope its not AF....... Spent alot of the night awake then cried myself back to sleep....this is just doing my head in....I just want to know either way but refuse to POAS. DH and I said we would POAS ONLY the day before the BT if AF hasnt arrived. Hope I dont crack.

Happy Easter Everyone.....hope everyone is doing ok today...

Waiting.....thinking of you alot

[Shannon22]

Hi Ladies

Well i am jumping in to join you

Will have a read and catch up on everyone.

I had two day 5 blastys transferred last Tuesday in an interesting FET, we had 4 day 1 embryos frozen from our last OHSS cycle where we didn't get to transfer so we still had to thaw and then grow to blast before transfer and were very lucky at least 2 made it!

So now we wait, DH and i have been on holidays all week and got home this morning. Wishing you all BFP's!!

Shan

[Carla MP]

Hi ladies
Well I think im out for the count. Had a bit of a spot so dont think its our turn this month. Wont be posting for a while...might try and re focus and work out our next step. i wish all the ladie sin here the very best of luck and will be keeping an eye on all of you hoping for the BFP's..stay strong my breautiful friends and thankyou so much for keeping me sane through out this journey of ours. YOu all mean the world to me....
Love always

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