Salt,

I was so hoping when i opened this thread up that you would have had a BFP.
I am so so sorry sweetie - it never gets any easier. As far as your fears about not being a mum - i have had them many a time but i REFUSE for that to happen - i will do everything i possibly can to make it and SO WILL YOU. You will be a mummy - i know it. If you need to take time out do so - do what feels right for you.
I just know for me i need to talk to other woman who understand. WE are all different - and maybe you need some space and thats okay to.
Please take care of yourself sweetie - cry - thats all i have been doing all afternoon. It helps to get it out - but it has given me a dreadful headache.
Or maybe the headache was because a had a couple of drinks as i have not had a drink for over a month.