Nervous after 1st transfer

wow bokkie - that time has gone so quickly. best of luck for tomorrow hun...

well no AF but a burning sensation in lower belly. dont know what that means. i did a hpt this morning and got BFN. should have waited till BT on friday. but i know with blast cycles that hcg levels can be lower, so im banking on that theory at the moment. cant really judge my body at the moment. i had to take my 11yr old kelpie x to the vet to be put to sleep. since i made the call at 9am to book her in until about 10 minutes ago i have been bawling!! so i feel drained, down and very achy all over...

anyway good luck girls... i have forgotten who it is, but isnt there a BT tomorrow for someone (was it you shannon?)

Oh Sonya...I am so sorry about your little furkid...I have just been outside yelling at mine and am now filled with guilt...take care of yourself...will be thinking of you xxx

Vanessa...sorry to hear AF has showed up...hang in there...

Bokkie...transfer...so exciting...good luck!!!! Sticky Vibes!!!

Juat thought id update you al and let you know that my TWW has come to an end and sadly i got a BFN no raised hcg at all, so back to the fs in a week to discuss options, im going to London to see family and didnt really want to be pg at the time of flying but i just thought i would change my ticket closer to the time so now i dont know what to do, i dont want to put off TTC and wont so we will just see how it goes i guess

I'm so sorry Lou! You're so strong to have gone through so much. Have a good break and hoping the next cycle is the one x

Sonya! I'm so sorry about your little dog... Its so sad to have to do that. I hope you're feeling better and that the BFN was just too early!

So no bad news call yet, I guess that means we made it to transfer... leaving in an hour or less, yikes!!!

Hey bokkie how was tF i hope you are resting.xx

Hi Girls
Lou...I'm so sorry hun..hope you're doing ok..
Sonya...How are you holding up?
Bokkie...lots of rest for you...sending lots of sticky vibes your way!

ellie - not good. cramps and aching back and now AF has started to show. BT tomorrow, but i know the answer. just aiming for a snowbub thaw next...sorry had a bad couple of days. too tired to type or read anymore. chat tomorrow.....

Oh Sonya...I am so sorry hun...it's just not fair...there's nothing I can say except I'm so sorry and I'm thinking of you...take care xxx

Well...Sonya...I've been crying non stop for the past 25 minutes and have just stopped to breathe...
Had the scan this morning...saw the little 'blob' and got pictures...all good...then phoned the clinic for results at 2.30...to find out HcG has only gone from 3200 to 3500 since Tuesday...so it's all over....what a day...the cruelest day EVER!!!!!

OMG ellie!!! im crying for you too.:cry:

Thanks Sonya...I'm sooooo angry...how can this all happen in one day...the first time we have ever seen our little one at scan and then this...how can life be so cruel????

Oh Ellie, I am so sorry to hear the news...there is nothing I can say to make you feel better...take care of youself...and my prayer is with you....xx

So I just phoned the clinic back...and spoke to my fav nurse...she's very confused...as we saw a pola body and everything looked great on the scan and my progesterone is 445? So another test on Monday and she told me not to give up hope as she has seen this happen to another girl and the next test was fine???? Somehow...I don't think that's possible???????????? Has anyone heard of such things happening?????????

OMG ellie i dont understand, you levels are still higher though, y cant they test you agin sooner. thinking of you hun

Thanks Lou...I just don't get it??? But thanks for pointing out that the levels have gone up....I've been so focused on the doubling thing I'd lost sight of that...THANK YOU!!!!

Ellie, I'm so sorry hun, I pray that the next test comes back okay. I so hope it was a mistake! You're in my thoughts and prayers! x

You're right, they DID go up. And surely its what they see on the scan that counts too. It really could have been a lab error, bub does look fine after all. Hang in there okay!

Thanks Bokkie... i was just thinking that I probably shouldn't even be chatting about all this in this forum....really insensitive of me...sorry...

My thoughts are with you Ellie. Try and stay positive, hope the weekend passes super quick and the results on Monday show that this test is just an anomaly.

i have a sad day today as well, thought i was fine and iam not ihave been crying all day cause this is so not fair, Ellie iam so sorry but there is still hope, don't understand the leveals much but it sounds good,thinking of you, i have started to cry again it's just so unfair i hope the weekend goes very quickly for you both

Vanessa...I'm still crying too...how can so many lovely people be going through so much? The resilience of everyone here is truely amazing...we will all be ok...we have to be...thinking of you too hun....hang in there xxx

hey girls. well AF arrived nice and strong this morning... my FS on holiday next week so i have appointment the following weds 23 may. this will mean i am day 12 of my 28 day cycle. do you think i will still be able to do FET this month or will it be too late for ovulation etc... this is all new to me. i saw one of you started tests etc on day 10. do you know if this is the norm?

Sorry Sonya...don't know...but looks like we'll be doing a FET soon too...keep me posted on how things are going...hope all is ok with you xxx

dont give up yet Ellie... people make mistakes. but if we do FET together at least we will be in the same boat. i am absolutely shattered and depressed. im already blessed with 2 boys. but they were difficult pregnancies and i had an angel baby first. people keep saying remember you have your boys already. which i am so lucky to have but i have an incredible, gut wrenching yearning for my next baby..i feel dissappointed and a bit of failure. oh well enough said. take care

Sonya - although you do have your boys the dissapointment, hurt and anger are the same espically after TTC with AC, as you know that the oppertunity was there.

Ellie have you been doing IVF for long?

As for a FET it depends if your cycles are regular or wether thay will need to medicate you. if i were you i would phone your clinic nurse and ask her as i dont think i have ever had to go back to FS for a FET as im already started IYKWIM. I think it's only for full stims that you will need to see your Fs again

GL

Hi Lou
TTC for 8 years...first chlomid in 2000...all the steps in between to first IVF in 2004...I've had enough now...

Tell me about it Ellie, just got off the phone again crying. y is this so f@$%ing hard

Oh Lou...I just don't know...I am so tired I have no tears left...I keep reading everyone's posts and the combined 'sorrow' here is overwhelming...but at least we have each other...we truely know what it feels like and that is why this support is so important...I am just walking around the house not knowing what to do with myself...I think it's time to make some big changes...I'm seriously thinking about quiting work...too stressful and makes me miserable....I think it's time to take control of something? Hang in there hun...we will get through today...because we have before...we have to...lots of hugs xxxx

I'm so sorry you're all feeling so sad! :grouphug:

Ellie, please don't be crazy girl, of course you can talk about it here, thats what we're here for. I really hope Monday brings good news for you! Its almost here...

Vanessa I hope you're feeling better, it takes time to grieve over what could have been, so don't feel bad. We're here for you.

Sonya, so sorry AF arrived hun. It might not be too late for this month if your doc gives you a scan to see whats going on in there. I only started the OPKs on day 12 and only ovulated on CD16 (I've got a 28 day cycle too). It sometimes takes a bit longer after a stim cycle to ovulate even if your cycles are regular. Hope you don't have to wait.

Lou, I'm sending you a big hug too, you've been thru such a lot, I know how much this sucks, its so unfair that we have to go thru it. When I see all the prams and babies at the mall it looks so easy for everyone else but not for us. They don't really know how lucky they all are. One day it'll all be over though, we have to believe that.

bookie when is your bt?

Its only on 24th May...

how exciting bokkie!! fingers crossed and sticky vibes for you hun!

Thanks so much Sonya!

OMG Bokkie...not long...how exciting....I so hope you get a BFP!!!! Have everything crossed for you...how are you feeling????
Sonya...hope AF isn't too horrible...hang in there...
Lou...how are you feeling today? Hope you're ok...thinking of you x
Vanessa...thanks for your kind words...you're right...it's not over till it's over...HOPE...got to hang on...how are you?
As for me...even though the FS has told me himself that it doesn't look good I have spent the day searching the net for 'happy endings' for bad hcg levels...turns out that after a level of about 1200 it doesn't double ever second day...and by 6 weeks they recommend ultrasound not bloods as they can cause more anxiety than they're worth!Apparently they can start doing all weird things that freak people out...HELLO!@?! So I have a little ray of hope...so I'm not going to worry about what the bloods say...I'm going to focus on our scan on the 21st and pray that we see a heart beat...I'll be 7 weeks and 2 days then...fingers crossed! What did people do before the net? Imagine going through all this and no way of reading everyone's stories...how lonely!

so glad your feeling so positive today Ellie, do you still have your repeat bt tomorrow and are you still taking p4?

Hi Lou
I have a bt tomorrow..haven't had any p4 since preg test at end of cycle...my p4 has stayed up around 380 and went up to 445 on Friday when the Hcg only went up 500...finding all these sites saying the same thing about taking the ultrasound results over the bloods has made me feel heaps better...I'm trying SO hard to focus on the fact we saw a little sack on that screen...I'm not confident but a little hope does wonders for the soul...how are you?

Ellie, so happy to hear you're feeling better, I'm thinking of you today and hope you get a nice increase in HcG. Your progesterone sounds really good and high to me. I'm pulling for you and your little bean, you can do it!

good luck for BT today Ellie.

Thanks Sonya...just got home...gosh I love my nurse and FS...nurse has booked scan for Thursday rather than Monday and has given me a Dr Certificate for the week...the nurse then told me about another patient who had s**t levels like mine...had her all booked for a D&C and did one last scan and there was a heart beat! I then bumped into my FS while waiting for the lift...he gave me a big hug and told me to hang on to the hope that there may have been two which would explain the glitch in the levels...it is so wonderful to have something to hang on to...so now we wait till 2.30...just over 4 hours...either way nurse said we will just keep plodding along till scan tells them what's going on?