Hi Sleebly,

Yes, the wait can be torture. If AF is coming this month I hope she comes sooner than later so I can have a little cry and then get on with celebrating Christmas at least.

I'm feeling all these weird twangs in my belly and can't make out if it's AF arriving soon or the progesterone I'm taking or just plain nerves.

I haven't had a drink in soooo long, I will at least enjoy a champagne or two if it's a BFN.

Most of the time I don't feel very positive, just on the very odd occassion I think...wow....what if, maybe...I hope so. But again I don't want to get my hopes up.

This I believe is the hardest part of ivf or ttc. If ivf offered a 100% success rate, well wouldn't that be great. It's the unknown and the wondering of what ones future will be, that is the hardest part for me. I can take the needles, the drugs etc, but I find it hard to take the waiting and the unknown for the future. It's cruel really! You sometimes feel like you are being punished, although I think I'm a good person.

Enough ranting form me (obvious I'm nervous).

Charlotte 8-[