You are feeling everything i felt. I wanted to do IVF but the fear of the unkown i think was sometimes worse than what i had to endure. I won't lie, going in to hospitsal for my egg collection was so nerve racking i wondered "why am i doing this? Why put myself through this? Am i heading for dissapointment?" But you just need to focus and take one teeny tiny step at a time. The weeks leading up to pick up with the spary, blood tests and injections i think have such an emtional pull on you that in that respect you just feel as though you are over it IYKWIM.
I think, and from what i have got from others is that, you can put your body through the wringer endless times and will recover, but it is the emotional part that will take it's toll and lead you to give up or take a break. So if whilst you are travelling this path remember to take care of no:1 and include your DH/DP in how you are feeling. They can only see what you are going through they don't feel it, and if they do it is nowhere the way we do.
From where i sit now i can totally say it was worth it. Thankfully it worked for us first go, but i was prepared for at least three attempts before i weighed the situation up again.
So as i said before, take each day as it comes, if you feel like crap and a wreck so be it, we all need to deal with stressful times in our own way, and if you keep focused on the end goal it may make it alot easier.
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