Thank you for understanding and support. Everyone tells me I have too pessimistic thoughts. It's easy for them to say so. They've never been through all this hell. I can't smile and think 'next surrogacy will be 100% successful!'. I can't close my eyes and forget about what had happened. You are the only one who can understand what I feel. They found sm for you for a very short perioud of time. Where did she live during the program? As surrogate mothers have their own families, it's wrong to make them live at your home in another country for almost a year. Did you come to visit her or something like that? And what about all those services? I mean taxi, translator, housing and so on. Was this only one time service? Or the clinic provided you with all those stuff during each of your visits? Did you get some info about your baby? It's hard to be so far away. I wish I could carry my baby by myself… You never know what sm is doing at the moment. Does she speak with a baby kindly? Does she eat healthy? Maybe your child feels lonely? But perhaps the clinic checks surrogate mothers weekly… Was there problems with documents for your daughter? I have absolutely no idea how to arrange all this in Ukraine. I guess we'll need some documents for child to leave the country. How to make everything right? Where did you go? What should be asked? Were there some troubles? Were there questioning in the airport? I'm scared that police may take my baby away from me. And it will be my fault! One mistake and there will be no way out! I'll never forgive myself if something like this happen.