Hey girlies. I'm somewhat back in the land of the living.

Pain and recovery has been 100000 times better this time around i am happy to report. Still a way off 100% but so much better than last time, I woke up in recovery at about 7.30pm on Tuesday night and was in the car on the way home by 9pm. My DH and I still can't believe the difference.

Unfortunately, the news is not so great. It appears that too much damage has been done to my left tube/ovary by the cyst and consequent surgery to remove it in May. I have severe scarring and adhesions and its more than likely i have no funciton on that side. He did a little work around my right ovary (some slight adhesions) and tube to free them up and they look OK. His report says "possible function on right but should consider IVF". So it's likely we'll be starting IVF in the new year.

I cannot tell you how impressed I am with my FS. He is a lovely, caring man and has made this whole process so much easier. I was an emotional wreck by the time I went to theatre (had been waiting 5 hours by that stage) and he held my hand and reassured me until I fell asleep.

I am totally OK about taking the IVF path, we will speak to our FS and find out more about where we go from here next week. One of the saddest things for me is that it means I will no longer 'belong' here with my friends. I doubt we will be doing another clomid cycle but will know more next week.

Thank you everyone for asking after me. Have had more hell with the in laws, which has been by far the hardest part of this week. I'm pretty upset by that because I can usually rely on them for 100% support and I just don't feel that way at the moment. My DD is coming home to me today and I'll just take care of her as best I can, I don't want her at the ILs another day. My husband is working nights this week so he will be home to help me and will get her dinner ready and bath her before he leaves so that will make it all much easier on me.

Will bbl with more personals but just wanted to say Belinda, I am so so sorry about your loss sweetie. It is such a hard thing to overcome and to try to start again, but we are all here to support you. ((hugs))