Not much to say here other than I think I turned the corner last night. I was chatting to DH about what we would do if I didn't make it through the review at school, and just knowing that we have enough options (like he's prepared to move for me to be closer to a new school, just so long as he can still get to work, and also prepared to change churches if we move far enough away), so that if I don't make it, it's not the end of the world. That removes the pressure just a little and means I can actually reach a mind-set where I'm able to do the work needed. I know it sounds weird, but it's the way my brain works. I'm also wondering if some of the anxiety is due to the clomid as well, but I guess we'll see.
DH has his appointment with the specialist on the 23rd of November, it feels like ages away! But when we sat down last night and got a basic timeline of the repair and then the time it will take for him to be growing strong, healthy sperm... even if I do change schools, I'm probably going to have been there long enough to still be eligible for maternity leave. It's kinda depressing that it's so long away, but I keep having to focus on the fact that the problems have a solution. Blood test for me on Tuesday... I'm suddenly really nervous! Scared that my levels are going to be bad, or say that I haven't ovulated... I'm sick of the waiting game!
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