This whole IVF journey has been one disaster after another. It's really starting to take a toll on my body, too. I have spent 24 of the last 41 days with some form of bleeding. For some reason my arthritis flares badly when I have my period, and again when it is raining. I've got my period and it's raining so feeling very sore right now.

First... I can't start IVF because my insulin levels are too high so I get put on the pill.

Second... after over 100 days without a period, the pill causes some breakthrough bleeding.

Third... the clinic nurses tell me to keep taking the pill and the breakthrough bleed eventually gets so bad I'm close to needing to be admitted to hospital. Spend many days feeling faint, dizzy and generally unwell, right on top of going back to work.

Fourth... get started on synarel, stop the pill and get to have another period only 10 days after the breakthrough bleed finally stopped. Somehow my body manages to have another heavy period when I'm still not recovered.

Fifth... after 10 days on synarel, my estrogen levels are too high. U/S scan discovers a follicle on one ovary.

Sixth... massive reaction to trigger shot. Incredibly sore belly for 4-5 days, still have a mark 9 days later, but it's finally starting to fade.

Seventh... blood test prior to resuming synarel at double the dose shows progesterone levels too low, need to be started on primolut to induce AF. Discussions result in a switch to lucrin.

Eighth... Spotting starts the night before starting primolut - told by the clinic again that it's "nothing to worry about"

Ninth... Full on period arrives one hour after taking first primolut tablet, over a week ahead of schedule, and only 7 days after the trigger shot. Yet another heavy period with barely two weeks between the start of one and the start of the next.

I'm going to have to yell and scream at the clinic again today - from a staff room with 15 other people and no private phone. I guess I'm going to be using the mobile from the car. There's just too much going on to be able to take the day off work, even though I'm in enough pain to warrant it.

How can getting my period now not end up being a problem when I'm supposed to have been on lucrin for seven days prior to it? How can it not be a problem that I get my period only seven days after ovulating from a trigger shot? The only time we've been confident that I ovulated before I had an 8 day luteal phase. How can this not be a problem? I'm really wondering if the clinic will have some way of sorting out that problem if we ever get to the point where there's actually eggs to collect in a cycle.

I'm almost starting to think that the world is trying to tell me that IVF is not for us!

BW