I probably can't help much because I was always very gung-ho and hated any holds up, but if something is holding you back then I think you need to try to get to the bottom of what it is, and listen to it.

It might be fear of the unknown, or something else, which you might understand a bit better once you have figured out exactly what is putting the brakes on for you.

I am indecisive with most things so I know how it feels to swing from one to the other.

Good luck sweety, I hope they find something real soon and you can get right off this roller coaster!