Hi canary,

are you going back full time or part time?

I have been back at work for about a month now after having dd2. I was nervous about work and thinking I may have forgotten everything I knew but after about 1hr it was like I never left. Im only working tuesdays and alternate weekends, Im a nurse so I am mainly working afternoon shifts which is great because I still get to spend all morning with the girls so they get mummy's attention for a good chunk of time.

After having my first baby and returning to work when she was 4 months I was nervous about how df would cope but it was great for him to step up and make decisions about our dd care. I just had to remind myself just because he sometimes does things differently to me doesn't mean he is doing the wrong thing.

For me the nerves and anxiet about returning to work were much worse than the reality. The girls are thriving, their dad and my mum love looking after them, so far so good. Im really enjoying being back at work, the conversation is great and being part time it almost feels loke a hobby. I understand your up and down feelings with it, I sometimes feel guilty that Im enjoying being away rom the kids, but I know for me Im actually a better mum for having that child free time. I call home at least once per shift just to check everyone is coping, makes me feel a lot better when I call df and he tells me they are all fed and happy

I try and cook meals in the morning so df just has to heat it up when he comes home rom work after picking the girls up from mums. I also try and pack bags, iron my work clothes and get organised the night before if Im working a morning shift, makes things much easier

Good luck, I hope you have a smooth transition back to work