Having a rough time!!! Bit of a vent.

[chris]

Hi
Can anyone give me some advice please.
A bit of my story -
At 11 weeks my Bp went up and I have been on Aldomet ever since (1 , three times aday). Then my thyroid started to play up (I have Hypothyroid)so my thyroxine has been added to, then I get told that I have an irritable uterus - they don't know what is causeing it as all tests that the Dr did were negative and now the most recent was a 4 day hospital visit because my BP went up (even on the pills). The Dr has now doubled the aldomet and things have settled down. To top everything off I have depression and I am takeing Zoloft to help me get through all this.
These days I feel like I rattle when I walk.

I keep on being told to rest (restrict your activity). I have been resting for most of the pregnancy and things still have gone wrong. Will resting really help???

I know it is selfish of me but sometimes I just wish the Dr will tell me that in a couple of weeks (when bub is strong enough to survive out in the world) he will enduce me.
I really want this baby but I am starting to feel like telling the Dr " enough is enough".

If anything else goes wrong I don't know how I am going to get through it.

Thanks for reading my vent.
Cheers
Chris

[hgirs]

Oh sweetheart,
I have no advice to share with you, except, please, please try and keep your little one cooking as long as you can. It sounds like a tough road you are on, but in the end it is the best that any of us can do.

Helen

[bettyboop]

chris sweetie - hang in there not long now, sending you a big hug.

[DiannaQ]

Chris - I really hope things brighten up for you - and don't feel bad about thinking about induction I'm sure that you're just worried about the baby's well being and taking so many meds can really play with your mind.

Try and take some time for yourself and take each day as it comes - maybe you need to change the ticker to one that calculates in days - I think it's a lot less daunting when you you look at in days - especially when its well under 100 days

[chris]

Thanks Helen, Betty and Dianna
I am just hanging in there and think if I told DH how I am feeling would freak him out. With 2 kids at home and feeling frustrated that I can't do much with them is getting to me. I am tired all the time from the Aldermet as I am on 1500mg a day (500, three times a day).

I am trying to be positive and I look at each day as it comes (and cross it off the list). I feel that I am letting this little one down as it is me that is the problem, Pip is healthy and growing well. My body is the big problem.

Thanks for the they really help.

Cheers
Chris

[DiannaQ]

one day at a time chris - just keep reminding yourself that bubba is growing, big healthy and strong

[AJC]

chris -

Sending you & Pip lots of strength & positive vibes.

[chris]

Hi
AJC - Thanks I don't want the others on PAMAL to know I am struggleing at the moment. I am trying to put on a brave face in front of them.

Dianna - Thanks Pip is doing well so I should be happy as that is all that counts.
Take care
Chris

[cheekyfrog]

Chris, I'm sorry you're struggling at the moment. You're doing everything you can and Pip is doing well. Resting will help and keep rubbing your tummy and talking to Pip.
Try out the Baby-Gaga development ticker for counting down the days and I think you'll be on the same level as me
Sending you lots of hugs and feel-good vibes

[Enchanted]

Sending lots of your way.

As the others have said.. the end is now in sight and you are doing a super job at growing that little bubba of yours. Come in here and vent as much as you like hun and get it all out. I remember when I was around your stage all I wanted was for bubs to hurry up and get out but honestly hun the best place for your precious little baby is tucked up in your belly.
Try and take it one day at a time. Come and join us in the Depression Forums if you like... everyone is very supportive in there and are always of great help!

Take care

[belfie]

Aaaw Chris hun I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling lousy - you have had SUCH a rough trot! I'm so glad you vented here, it's what we're for!

I think it's really easy to get caught up feeling we should be happy/grateful/peaceful/calm/beatific... whatEVER! I reckon the reality is that hard PG's are HARD! I've had moments of feeling exactly like you describe, then feeling like everyone else is coping and I should be doing better than I am. I also reckon that 3rd tri is the emotional tri (and to think I thought it was the first tri!!!)... it's like you've just been coping with one thing after another, after another - no wonder you're feeling like you're struggling! And I reckon you are coping just brilliantly by posting and letting those feelings out. As the other ladies said, just take one day at a time.

While it is fantastic that Pip is going so well,

so I should be happy as that is all that counts.

bah should schmood!!! Let yourself be unhappy or stressed if you need to be, you're working your guts out trying to get your little pip as far along as you can - I don't think you SHOULD be happy... but you SHOULD be proud of yourself!! I think you've just done amazingly to cope with all this. Give yourself a big pat on the back, come vent in here (I nearly did the same thing a week or so ago - and stupidly didn't!)... I'm sending you good vibes that things will settle & get a little easier for you.

big BIG Belfie

[chris]

Hi girls
Went down to GP today as I had to get my B12 injection. I thought I had a bit of a cold and a tooth ache/head ache. But NO I have an ear infection and a bit of a cold . So that is most probably why I feel so horrible. I have been given a script for anti biotics but not sure if I will get it made up yet (I hate pills!!!! I rattle already with out more pills )

Thanks Belfie, Kerry and Danielle.
By the way where have you been Kerry??? I was only asking about your where abouts the other day.

Take care
Chris

[DiannaQ]

Chris you're doing so well - now go fill the script - you can't have an infection and not take anything for it - not good for you, not good for Pip - the GP wouldn't have given it to you if you didn't need it..... but in the mean time - glad to see that you're starting to see the sunshine from behind those big ugly grey clouds - you're so close to finish line now - YAY!!!

[chris]

Hi
Dianna - I am going to go and get script filled out, the cold has turned into the flu and I am not feeling so good at all. I am going to need the anti biotics for both and I am going to get some thing for thrush just incase as the way things are going for me I best be prepared just incase (I don't normaly get thrush).

Well I'm off to the lounge.
Take care
Chris

[AJC]

chris - posted in PAML too but just wanted to send you

Hope the earache & cold take off and let you be. You've had enough on your plate lately.

Take Care.

[DiannaQ]

hope your'e starting to feel better Chris - maybe dose up on Lemon Tea - bloody flu can't wait for this winter crapola to be done with

[chris]

Hi girls
I have nearly got my voice back and the flu is all but gone

Now the new problem is that I hve had both kids sick with the vom & dia. It started last Wed at 1 am with DS and on Friday DD started with it. I have been vom just cleaning up after them.

On Saturday I started to get really bad Irritable uterus. They got that bad that I went up to the local hosp. I was told that I had keytones ++++ and my BP was high (161 over 98). I was kept there for 8 hrs. I was told to drink more water, (but nobody listened that I have been trying to do that but it just comes up as fast as it goes down) I had tried weak cordial and that didn't work. I was a mess I tried everything I know and nothing worked (I basicaly have been vom since wednesday). I don't know if I have kept medications down or how much food I have been able to keep down but I kept on trying.
I was told that the IU was caused by me being dehydrated. I was sent home feeling like utter crap still dehydrated and with BP of 150 over 90 (I was given 4 aldermet while in the hospto bring down the BP).

I am feeling that weary it is not funny. I am still finding it hard to keep anything down myself.

Has any one got any ideas of how I can help myself get/feel better as going to the local hospital didn't help.

I don't want to go to my anti natal clinic appt this week as I have lost all confidence in the local hospital. I think I should have been given IV fluids at least and some thing to help me stop vimiting. I don't think this is good for my baby at all.

I think I will go and get my BP checked by the nurse at the GP and skip the ANC.

Any words of wisdom???

Chris

[cheekyfrog]

Chris, that sonds awful. And I don't understand either how they could release you when your BP was still so high and with you still unable to keep anything down.
Not sure what to suggest... Plan A: go to GP and get a referral to someone who will be able to help you. Plan B: go back to emergency and get yourself checked again and hopefully admitted for longer than 8 hours. They must see how concerned you are for yourself and your baby. I want to give you a big hug!! You are putting up with so much!!!