Aaaw Chris hun I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling lousy - you have had SUCH a rough trot! I'm so glad you vented here, it's what we're for!

I think it's really easy to get caught up feeling we should be happy/grateful/peaceful/calm/beatific... whatEVER! I reckon the reality is that hard PG's are HARD! I've had moments of feeling exactly like you describe, then feeling like everyone else is coping and I should be doing better than I am. I also reckon that 3rd tri is the emotional tri (and to think I thought it was the first tri!!!)... it's like you've just been coping with one thing after another, after another - no wonder you're feeling like you're struggling! And I reckon you are coping just brilliantly by posting and letting those feelings out. As the other ladies said, just take one day at a time.

While it is fantastic that Pip is going so well,
so I should be happy as that is all that counts.
bah should schmood!!! Let yourself be unhappy or stressed if you need to be, you're working your guts out trying to get your little pip as far along as you can - I don't think you SHOULD be happy... but you SHOULD be proud of yourself!! I think you've just done amazingly to cope with all this. Give yourself a big pat on the back, come vent in here (I nearly did the same thing a week or so ago - and stupidly didn't!)... I'm sending you good vibes that things will settle & get a little easier for you.

big BIG Belfie