Coming to terms with the universe...

[CharlieBrownGirl]

...hopefully this makes sense, as I feel really confused at the moment and am fining it hard to come to terms with the universe.

I believe that things happen for a reason and as such I'm becoming angry with the universe, which I understand is not a healthy or good thing.

What I don't understand, why is the universe not allowing me to be a Mum? We've been TTC for almost a year now and nothing is happening. This morning I felt what have I done to the universe, to not be allowed the opportunity to be a Mum?

I think that in my mind if I had an ETA of when I'll be pregnant, I could be happy with that knowledge.

For now, I just want to

What strategies can anyone suggest to cope with this better?

(on a side note I've been seeing a kinesiologist, who has been good on some aspects of my life but not in the TTC area, saying that my body isn't ready and adding personal views to sessions such as 'what is the rush? My mum had me in her late 30s' 'there is so much pain in this world, why bring a child into that?')

*sigh*