Dr Demartini says that the universe is all about balance and when you have one sided perceptions you will draw to yourself things that will show you the other side to bring you back to balance. So...maybe (and this is a big maybe because I am still learning and I don't really know your situation) you're thinking about how wonderful your life would be if you had a baby - thats a fantasy and believing your fantasy is really detrimental.

Here's a couple of things from his book that might help...

"Why can't we be happy all the time? The answer is simple - because the one sided mask called happiness by itself is a fantasy and an illusion. The addiction to this one tiny illusion gives rise to a whole realm of social concerns - stress, heartache, hopelessness, anger, resentment, blame, depression and even suicide.

How can we be grateful for life when in our fantasy world we know exactly how life is supposed to be? I'm going to let you in on a big secret. Life is the way it is. If we want it to correspond to our fantasies, we are setting ourselves up for self-defeat, anger, frustration, negativity and ingratitude.

I am convinced that we cannot achieve fulfillment by running away from half of our life into the world of fantasies. I personally gave up happiness because it made me too sad."

So what i'm getting at is maybe you think your life will be better with a baby but until you realise the balance of your life as it is...the (perceived) good and bad things about NOT having a baby and also the positive and negative OF having a baby then maybe it will happen??

Again, I don't know and if this is totally wrong then i'm sorry but Dr D makes a lot of sense to me and I try and apply his ideas to most areas in my life.

Huge hugs hun xxxx