Honestly I would be happy to see him and see how he is but at the same time im so ashamed at who I am at the moment with my OCD and what I look like. I really need to work on that for me not for anyone else.
Don't be silly Bel. I'm not the same person (physically) as i was back in my uni days when i missed the opportunity too. But i am the same and even better person mentally and i'm sure you are too. Do you think he has retained his physical attributes too? I don't think so. And we all know that when people fall in love or make friendships/relationships it ain't skin deep because then the friendship/relationship wouldn't last very long if you aren't connected mentally. So don't beat yourself up over the physical attributes. I'm sure you are just fine!

How did i forget and not see him in my dreams any more?? Well, i had heard news from him and they were all good and he was married! and well, so am i! so i just let it go. I think you are still seeing him in your dreams, because you just don't know what he is up to. If had heard news of him, you'd let it go too.

Then on the other hand, i keep seeing "another" one that got away in my dreams constantly. I can't get any news from him as he has passed away. **big sigh** I saw him in my dream again last night, he was soooooo handsome as ever, in his grey suit and broad shoulders. We got engaged in my dream and he was hugging me from behind. I didn't want to wake up **sheds a little tear here**. I woke up and looked up and told him that i loved him **sheds more tears**. i can't let this one go though!

But i truly love my husband too. He is fabulous. But i can't help think "if he hadn't died, would we have....."

xxoo