Reading another thread got me thinking about my own experience with my ill great grandmother and my DD1.
Nan had been sick for quite some time with parkinsons, she had been in a nursing home for over 5yrs but we were very close and i visited often.

When she first went into hospital and homes she joked that she would not leave me until i was happy (just been through a break-up), when i found my DP i didn't tell her for a while and i'm not sure why i think i was worried that would be my happiness and she would leave me.
Nan often asked if DP and i were engaged yet or joke around asking if my weight gain was natural.. i often told her no i'm not PG if that is what your hinting at.

on the 12.2.08 i found out i was PG, it was the 20yr anniversary of my brothers death, we told everyone at 12wks and my nan was so excited, she kept asking what names we had picked and if we were going to find out the sex of bubs.
We had decided we weren't going to but knew of a boys name, we told her we were using my great grandfathers (her husbands) name as a middle name.
She jokingly hinted and asked what we would use for a girl? we had NO IDEA!

It came to our 20wk scan and a flip of a coin and spur of the minute decision saw us asking what our little bundle was going to be, it's a GIRL!
We hadn't even looked at names, not 1 so i started looking around and asking my nan (great grandmothers daughter) about nans middle names, she has 4 and only 1 had not been used.. Lillian or Lillias (dif fam members say dif things???).
All of a sudden i knew, AVA LILLY, the one and only name we mentioned and we picked it straight away.
Nan was getting worse and i made the decision to call her and tell her we had decided on a name, she was high on morphine and hardly knew who i was but i got the message to her and it was a load off my chest... until..............

3 days later she passed!

My gorgeous Ava Lilly was born at home, breach on the bathroom floor and i was by myself, or was I?
I was so calm and despite all the possible things that could have gone wrong my baby girl came without an issue, i had a feeling nan was there and i couldn't shake it.

After we came home i had some issues with my gall bladder and ended up having to take panadeine forte, one night i had the pains, got up and took the PF and went back to bed, i had a dream that started the same as when i had just taken the PF and i could hear DD talking in her basinette but when i looked no-one was there, but then i looked again and my nan was standing over her and talking to her... i woke from my dream and DD was talking at 3am in the morn to herself!

I get chills whenever i think about it but was it meant to be? Was nan MEANT to pass once she knew i was happy and using her name, and is she my gorgeous Ava's guardian angel, i have often dreamt nan is watching over her or talking to her and wake to hear DD chatting away to herself!

Sorry this is so long, had to get it out otherwise i would not have slept.
Thanks for reading.