i hear you hun
i have learnt to visualise that there is a white light that goes through the top of my head and upward- i am the channell for the light - so it goes in through the top of my head and out through my hands! I am a vessle for the energy to be channelled- not the souce of the energy!
That is why when people feel crap, the come to you and take your energy
they walk away feeling great and you feel totally drained!
also you need to learn to protect yourself and put a white light around you to stop people sapping too much from you and hurting you- its a visualisation thing!

I have used my energy to heal and to comfort as well. An incident i remember vividally was when our page boy from our wedding was fatally injured in an accident- he was 10 years old. I was fortunate that the night before the accident, he had layed in my arms and we spoke about how much I loved him and how much he meant to me- the were going overseas to live the following week. When we got the call that he had been involved in an accident- we went to the ICU where he was in a coma. His brain was swelling at that stage, and it wasnt good.

We were all called around his bed as his vitals started failing. There was about 20 of us. I was at the back of the room and decided to send my energy to his mum who was holding his hand! A friend of ours was standing in between myself and his mum. After a while his vitals stabilised and we left the room again. Outside my friend who was standing between us came over and said what a beautiful hug I had given her and how warm it was! I wasnt hugging her, I was 10 feet away from her- it was my energy that she had inadvertly been in the path of that she felt. A real affirmation to me that the energy that i was giving out could be felt!!

You are a special person to be sharing your energy - its learing the balance between sharing the energy and leaving yourself short that is hard!

BTW if find that if i dont use my energy- it builds up and i get a migrane! Although i have found that another way i can blast off the energy that i havent use and prevent a migrane is to have a BIG O! But that is for another thread . . . . lol

hugs