Hi & Welcome Divvy,
I can sympathise with you, for the loss of your precious baby. I too have experienced the same loss & my heart goes out to you. It was just over a year ago for me also.
I think its really important to be able to acknowledge the pain & sadness & to express it, not try to put on a brave face.
I have hard days still & I'm sure it will get better. I don't think I'll ever truly 'get over it', but I believe knowing that your baby is at peace is what will get you thru those bad days. And having people to talk to really helps too, especially people who've been thru the same thing.
I hope you find support from the people around you & also from everyone at BB.