You know what? You're not a nut. You are just a mum who wants another child to love. Nothing wrong with that at all.
It's a horrible realisation that pregancy and childbirth isn't as easy or as straightforward as we are all led to believe it is. I mean, you're meant to have unprotected sex, get pregnant and have a baby 40 weeks later. For some it is that easy, but most women have a harder road; some with infertility, others with miscarriages, chromosomal problems or late losses.

It's a realisation I wish no one had to have.

Sometimes I feel like a naive idiot keeping going with IVF against the odds. But I'm not, and neither are you.

I really hope you can feel better soon and that one day in the very near future you are celebrating a sticky pregnancy.

Take care x