First of all I'm so sorry to hear of your loss Calluna. It is very hard to get through, and the what if's constantly play in our head, and the little future we had already started planning After only a month, it's natural for it to still be very hard and raw, emotionally.

Seeing lots of BFPs
Why?
Why all at once?
Why all in my face?
Why couldnt it be me?
Why does it hurt so much?
I found with my losses I would always find this, pregnant women everywhere, babies everywhere. I found it very confronting and hard to handle.