Only a month- it feels like so much longer. Its gone by so slowly. I want to get off this ride. Feeling very alone and empty tonight.

Im so tired but Im afraid to go to bed, I should ovulate in the next few days and therefore DTD, urgh. And Im afraid to go to sleep, every night I have nightmares. Some nights worse than others. Falling asleep in my chair. *sigh* guess Ive fought it as long as I could.