Tracey am so very sorry to hear of your terrible loss. It is so not fair to lose something when we so badly want it. That is exactly how I felt when we lost our second child, a baby boy, at 18w5d. This was to be our family complete & all of a sudden it was not going to be. I also understand the taking away of the innocence of a PG, never again will I rest assured that all will be fine while I am PG.
Here's to all the support that you need to get through this time.