awww i totally understand i was asking my DF to TTC with me while waiting for my D and C in the pre op room, it was all i thought about and occupied my mind with and it did take another 9 months but im glad he decided not to wait as for me it was part of the healing process, your mind is so set in the mode of becoming a mum and its stolen all you want is for that feeling to come back and the expectations to return. I hope all works out and you get your forever baby sooner rather than later.