Today is one week since my miscarriage, and im feeling a little lost, although i have kind of delt with it, i am still sad.
But now i feel lost, im ready to start ttc again, and hubby wants to wait, and i dont know for how long.
I kind of feel like i dont fit in or belong anywhere atm, iykwim.
I used to hang around the ttc, ttw threads, then for a short time was in a pregnancy thread. But feel like i dont belong in the ttc thread atm, because i dont know if i am ttc again.
I still look at the new posts, and reply where i think i can, but its not the same, i liked having my own little comfort zone, a thread where i felt like i can belong.
Silly i know, but i just feel a little lost today.
oh anila im so sory that you are feeling lost today and i dont really have an answer for you but i do send yo lots of ...and i think that you should start ttc whenever you feel ready to..take care xoxoxxo
Thanks young_mumma87, but thats the problem i am ready, hubby is not, and he says he needs time, and when i asked how long he said months.
Im just hoping that when it comes time to dtd, he chooses to skip the protection, cause im not going back on the pill.
He knows how much it means to me, but asks me to respect how he feels.
So i feel selfish.
i wouldnt fell selfish hun you want a baby and its not as if you want to replace the angel that just left, you guys both decided to get pregnant the last time so i dont see how it is diferent...maybe he doesnt like seeing you up set and is worried it may happen again ( god i hope not just trying to make sense of why he wants to wait) i hope you can agree on things soon hun xox
I also feel like i dont belong anywhere since my loss and as far as TTC well - who knows?
I am stuck in the middle - do i want to try again or do i just be happy with what i have and call it a day - this loss has made me reasess alot and now i dont know. As for DH - he would like to wait - especially till i sort out how i feel. He wants me to be able to make the right decision. I also know that DH will be happy to try again when and if i say i am ready.
I am still struggling emotionally - still havent told DS#1 ( he was the only one we told ) cause every time we talk about it i am a wreck and i want to be able to tell DS#1 without losing it -IYKWIM. I know i need to do it - but i just cant.
oh chickybabe, im so sorry that u have to go through this also, its not fair, all babies should be sticky babies.
My hubby said to me the other night that he doesnt want to pick up the pieces, but he didnt, it was you girls on bb that helped me get through this, he wont talk about it, so i dont know what pieces he was picking up.
I just want to get on with ttc and put this behind me.
Feeling a little lost. :(
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( he was the only one we told ) cause every time we talk about it i am a wreck and i want to be able to tell DS#1 without losing it -IYKWIM. I know i need to do it - but i just cant.
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