Thank you all for your support and concern. It is a comfort to know that there is somewhere I can come to talk about what is happening to me and everyone understands.
This second miscarriage and the horrible experience I had with the doctors and the D&C has really hit me hard, and at the moment I'm not coping too well at all. I'm constantly cold and dizzy and sick in my stomach and my head is pounding. At times I feel like I'm not even in my own body, if that makes any sense? i'm usually very strong and in control and these feelings that I'm having are very alien to me and frighten me.
Any miscarriage is a terrible thing to experience but to lose two little souls has really shattered me, more than I thought possible. In my mind I keep seeing them on the ultrasound and it breaks my heart to think what could have been. I can't help thinking they were my last chance.
They were due on my birthday. Every birthday I have now for the rest of my life will just be a reminder of their absence.
I am so sorry rottfren, it is really hard to cope with the loss. And I am sorry the doctor was so rude also. Day by day things will eventually ease...but it takes time, so be gentle with yourself and feel what you feel
It is such a raw, heartbreaking time when you are waiting for a D&C you dont want to have, and it is very disheartning to read your registrars comments, and that there was not a woman in the room to hold your hand as you went under.
You may be having some post traumatic shock, you have been through so much over the last few weeks, I really hope you have someone who can help you with your grieving process, and perhaps you could contact a counsellor to deal with your pain, as you deserve so much care and understanding right now.
Just wanted to say hugs babe.im sorry that dr was so horrid,
next time you get a bfp be more forceful with the drs about getting those tests done so you can do somethingabout it sooner and so this hopefully doesnt happen again
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I'm so sorry you had to go through this horrible experience.
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