Thank you all for your support and concern. It is a comfort to know that there is somewhere I can come to talk about what is happening to me and everyone understands.

This second miscarriage and the horrible experience I had with the doctors and the D&C has really hit me hard, and at the moment I'm not coping too well at all. I'm constantly cold and dizzy and sick in my stomach and my head is pounding. At times I feel like I'm not even in my own body, if that makes any sense? i'm usually very strong and in control and these feelings that I'm having are very alien to me and frighten me.

Any miscarriage is a terrible thing to experience but to lose two little souls has really shattered me, more than I thought possible. In my mind I keep seeing them on the ultrasound and it breaks my heart to think what could have been. I can't help thinking they were my last chance.

They were due on my birthday. Every birthday I have now for the rest of my life will just be a reminder of their absence.