Given your history I think my head would be ready for it to end, however if I had my time again I'd have waited. I didn't realise at the time I had a choice. I found out the baby was dead at 12 weeks (no heart beat) and had the d and c the next afternoon. I was a crazy emotional wreak, the 1st D&C left retained products and the 2nd D&C perforated my uterus! Was a hell 4-6weeks let me tell you. I'll always wonder how long it would have taken naturally and if I'd be strong enough to wait it out. Loss is always hard however you deal with it. Hugs hun