I honestly don't it it will get easier for you no matter how much time passes.
I agree Sushee, which is why i'm thinking I should just do it, grieve the letting go if I have to, and move on. It's never going to get any easier and it's just not practical for me to keep it forever.

You're not giving him away, not how much he meant to you, or how much you love him, by letting this go
Thank you, this is exactly what I needed to hear....