I just feel sad.... :(

[myturn]

Feeling sad.... So sad..... Was okay this morning. But now, I just feel sad.....

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I don't know what else to say to end this post....


I am sitting in the car outside the house after having gone grocery shopping. While out I bought a box to put everything relating to 'blob' in. I feel sad that I have to do that. I want blob back.

[Joeve]

My heart is sad for you x hugs babe and a little prayer for blob.

[Lily Dust]

myturn, my heart is breaking for you, it really is. Im sorry and wish i could make everything better for you. Its so unfair and so cruel. I agree with n2l- it really is one of the cruelest blows and few can really understand how you are feeling. IVf is hard at the best of times but to be where you are is like another kick while your already down. Im sorry your little 'blob' couldnt stay. Stay strong, hun

[Keta]

Hunni I'm so sorry. I think of you everyday and wish I could make it better. What you are going through is so unfair and I can't imagine the emotions you are currently going through. I agree with N2L and Lily Dust. xxx

[myturn]

I spent most of the car trip home from the shops tonight trying to cry silently... Couldn't stop them falling but didn't want DSD to see/hear them.....

I don't understand why it's hitting me this afternoon/tonight....
But I think, while I need the box....

The box signifies ..... An end? ....

.... I'm not sure I'm ready for it, so it will sit in the corner for a while until I can bring myself to deal with it....

i know how grief works.... I know that this is normal.... But I just feel so terrible... And this surprises me, cause I was doing okay. I really was. And now I'm feeling stuck in this moment and I'm scared it's never going to end.

[nothing2lose]

Dont forget your hormones will be all over the place at the moment. Especially if you were on progesterone pessaries and have stopped them suddenly. It will be like really bad PMT, but with unimaginable grief thrown in

[Lily Dust]

But I think, while I need the box....

The box signifies ..... An end? ....

.... I'm not sure I'm ready for it, so it will sit in the corner for a while until I can bring myself to deal with it.....

You only need to do it in your own time, no pushing yourself. Be kind to you. And not the end, perhaps just the remebering, the recognising of pure love for your little one and the beginning of another journey

[RhiChiChi]

I'm so sorry hun x

[Kazzo]

I am really sorry MT. I wish this did not have to happen to you.

[Mummy&Daddy2Be]

so sorry hun... i hope it gets easier for you

[Marley&Me]

Oh myturn You must be devastated It just isn't fair. I'm so sorry

[minniemouse]

it is so unfair, you have been in my thoughts

[buffy1]

I'm so sorry myturn. Still thinking of you and sending hugs.

[jlk]

xxxxxx

[Mum2SweetCs]

no words ... just lots of

[foreva*your*mummy]

Im so so sorry, Unfortunatly there is so many people on here, myself included that know how you are feeling. There really are no words to get you through this. Be kind to yourself and feel however you need to feel. Take the time to grieve.

[nothing2lose]

I can't imagine how bad you must be feeling

To go through the long hard slog of assisted conception and so many rounds of ivf is bad enough (for anyone who has not been there, it is so, so heartachingly difficult) to then finally, finally think that it was your turn to have the child you've always dreamed of - longed for - only to have it taken away.

It's one of the cruelest blows of all, one that few can truly understand.

Take care and stay strong x

[Catastrophic]

It just sucks! I am so heartbroken for you xoxo hugs and plenty of them - wish I could give them IRL! Xoxox


Cat xox