Thanks for being here for me girls.

Yesterday I kinda woke up and felt...different. I still have barely any symptoms and I still have little hope, but I don't feel so tortured by what is going on. I feel like all I have done over the last few weeks is cry and obsess over all the what ifs. I can't keep going on that way. I can't spend the next week freaking out, it's not healthy and it's not helping. So I am just not thinking about it, I feel a lot calmer and able to cope.

They want me to have the next scan when I'm over 7 weeks by their dates, because according to them I'm just behind. I'm willing to wait as at least it will be a definite answer this way. They can't say it's just too early again, if that makes sense. I'd love to have a scan right now but this way there will be no mistaking the outcome. I'm normally pretty impatient so I'm surprising myself

Still spotting every now and then but haven't had cramps for a couple of days now. Oh and my nipples have just started hurting today so I am pretty confused!