I don't know what to do i dont know if i should rant like this here or just suck it up and move on.
As most of you know i had a missed m/c on april 2,2010 and found out that i was pregnate the beging of june i was happy but scared not knowing what was going to happen still don't.

Today me and my b/f got into an augment i dont know if its becosue i am pregnate or becouse of the stress of his kids coming or our realtionship is coming to an end i dont know. But we got into a fight becosue he went over to his grandfather to "work" and he was there almost all day i called him asked him if he minded if i stop by he said no dont. Now we have been put on sex restrions and he has been saying how he just wants to sleep wth a couple of his ex's one lives right down the road and wants him back badly. Well he started to say well your going to work yourself up into having a misscarrage AGAIN. And i got really upset at both parts. He left me a voice message saying well if you did not want this baby you should have told me the beging of june and we could have taken care of this. I want this baby so badly if i lose it i have had dreams of killiing myself becosue i could not deal with the loss. Well tonight i usally get ms and i have not gotten any of it what if the stress of this fight did make me loss this baby i it wil lbe all my fault my world will be over with.