Bec honey - I hope that your other 2 children are alright with everything that is happening to their mummy right now. Loosing a child, no matter how far into this world they have stepped still brings a heavy heart. Try (as best as you can) to take time for you and your children right now. Concentrate on the three of you. Your fiance never really loved you if he said and did what he did to you. Im sure when you have healed that true love and happiness will be waiting with open arms. In the mean time, remember that we're here for you at BB when you need us.
Take care